\u201cLady Karuna, may I have a moment of your time, please?\u201d, a strikingly blue angel bowed.<\/p>\n
\u201cBy all means, Sri Shankaracharya\u201d, the girl smiled and curtsied. \u201cHow can I be of assistance?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSince the end of my life on Earth, I meditated, thought, asked questions, and eventually decided to talk to you, since all are in agreement that you are the wisest or at least in the closest contention for that title, and you seem to be the least scary and intimidating of all who were mentioned in the same breath\u201d, he smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt will be my honour\u201d, she smiled and waved a hand. A coffee lounge enclosed them as to give them privacy. \u201cI assume your inquiry will be related to the fact that the world doesn\u2019t seem to follow the predictions your philosophy postulated\u201d, she poured him coffee.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat is indeed so, but were it only that, my confusion would be less, and I would merely adopt a system of belief that is better. My problem is that nobody seems to have predicted everything with full accuracy. Buddha was both wrong and right on many counts. Personalistic schools were right on some counts and wrong on others. Christians, as I see, were also wrong on many things, and yet right enough for it not to matter greatly. What is most confusing is that I see Gods who belonged to many different systems, most of which were wrong on at least half of everything they addressed, and yet it doesn\u2019t seem to matter. My own system seemed to explain everything, and here I see that it explains the Absolute excellently, and the Relative poorly, to the point where I got literally nothing right. This in itself would be humbling enough, but I recently witnessed the fact that four peasants from Mleccha lands attained godhood very quickly, based on short instruction by the enlightened Buddhists originating from the university of Nalanda, so obviously the secret to apotheosis must be easy and straightforward to both explain and understand, and yet, I never even came close to replicating their achievement. I am thus confused and seek refuge in your knowledge, Goddess of Wisdom\u201d, he bowed deeply.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour analysis is honest, straightforward and accurate, and I admire it\u201d, the Lady nodded. \u201cYour mind is pure and powerful and it is an honour and a pleasure to talk to you. However, allow me to direct your attention to the Gods themselves. You seem to have become aware of their particular identities and status?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes, I know all of you. There are Lord Shiva and Lady Shakti, Lord Krishna and Lady Lakshmi, your esteemed husband Lord Azazel and your honoured person, then Lord Buddha and Lady Zina, Lord Azrael also known as Yama, and his wife, Lady Hypatia of Yavana origin, Lord Jesus and his wife Lady Mary, Lord Padmasambhava of Nalanda and his honoured wives, Lady Mandarava and Lady Yeshe Tsogyal, their four recently enlightened disciples from the Christian lands, and I heard that a famous Christian philosopher and his honourable wife have today been added to the number, but I don\u2019t know their names yet, as I just heard the news\u201d, he reported.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour report is indeed exhaustive and accurate, Svamiji\u201d, Karuna nodded. \u201cCould you please point out the Gods who are brahmacharis<\/i>?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t think there are any, my Lady. They all seem to be married couples\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u201cI also assure you that all couples attained apotheosis together; there were no individual male or female Gods who attained apotheosis, and got married later\u201d, she confirmed. \u201cWhat does that tell you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt indicates very strongly that spirituality isn\u2019t an individual endeavour, and that there is something about male and female aspects of consciousness, and especially them working together in the last stage of spiritual advancement, that makes apotheosis possible\u201d, he conceded. \u201cThis, however, is as far as my analysis can take me\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u201cI will now demonstrate something my holy Mother, Lady Lakshmi showed me right before my crystallisation into vajra<\/i>. Take a look at this astral flower\u201d, she waved her hand and a flower appeared on the coffee table. \u201cPlease, enter samadhi<\/i> and feel it\u201d, she encouraged.<\/p>\n
\u201cI did. Its very consciousness sings so ham<\/i>, I Am That\u201d, he nodded. \u201cThe flower exists in a state of turiya<\/i>\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat is correct. Now, tell me, Svamiji, how are you different from that flower?\u201d, she smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou mean, we both exist in a state of unity between atman<\/i> and brahman<\/i>. By my own definition, this realisation should burn out all karmic seeds and remnants and produce liberation, the way knowledge erases ignorance and light erases darkness. And yet, not only are myself and the flower different karmic entities, but we are in fact vastly different. I see what you mean: turiya<\/i> does not affect the level of karma<\/i> whatsoever. One who was a man before realisation does not become a flower or an elephant merely because the same brahman<\/i> manifests as atman<\/i> in all beings. Also, his karma is not transformed or erased, and whatever he was prior to realisation, this he remains, with the addition of realisation, which changes his understanding, but does not fundamentally alter his nature. The consequence of this, I see, is that I worked very hard on attaining a state that is initially valuable, but its repetition and extension does not improve upon this initial achievement, making the effort redundant, if not altogether useless\u201d, he conceded.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour analysis is excellent\u201d, she smiled and nodded in praise. \u201cYou are probably familiar with the Sankhya<\/i> theory of Prakriti<\/i> and the three gunas<\/i> that make it: tamas<\/i>, rajas<\/i> and sattva<\/i>?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI am indeed\u201d, he nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cThis theory is a Hindu attempt to make their own version of Lord Buddha\u2019s theory of kalapas<\/i>, the fundamental particles that aggregate into larger karmic entities. This theory was the theoretical foundation of his concept of anatman<\/i>, assuming that the concepts of karma<\/i> and soul are not separate, in a sense where soul would have karma<\/i>, but that soul in fact is<\/i> karma<\/i>. Buddha assumed that the concept of asmita<\/i>, self-ness, is an emergent property of karma<\/i>, and as such deconstructible. This was his error, as samadhi<\/i> experience demonstrates \u2013 asmita<\/i> is the foundation of all reality, as it is the fundamental aspect of the Absolute, and since it exist in every single kalapa<\/i>, it is obviously not divisible either, as your Upanishads illustrate with the example of a single Moon and multiple vessels of water that can contain its reflection\u201d, she nodded. \u201cSo, if every kalapa<\/i> manifests asmita<\/i>, and other properties of brahman<\/i>, what changes as kalapas<\/i> aggregate into larger entities?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe obvious answer is quantity. However, this does not relate to asmita<\/i>, as self-full nature of brahman<\/i> seems to exist in this flower as much as in myself. However, the mind changes, as well as other manifestations of sat-cit-ananda<\/i>. This means that a bigger, more complex karmic structure creates a larger, more powerful consciousness, and differences exist in ratios and amounts of properties. If impurities exist, they also affect the structure of the karmic body, which now explains the purpose of yoga<\/i> and other forms of sadhana<\/i>; those impurities need to be removed\u201d, he nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cSo, we have so far proven that asmita<\/i> and sat-cit-ananda<\/i> exist on a particulate level, and are not emergent macroscopic properties. We have also established that souls vary in size and complexity, and that impurities and structural flaws can manifest during the process of karmic accretion. Do you agree\u201d?<\/p>\n
\u201cI do\u201d, he nodded. \u201cHowever, we haven\u2019t established the mechanism of accretion itself, nor what makes a difference between pure and impure growth of a karmic body, and I will now make an obvious corollary from the established fact that kalapas<\/i> are of the nature of asmita<\/i> and sat-cit-ananda<\/i>, and state that the karmic actions that promote self-realization and sat-cit-ananda<\/i> in oneself and other beings are conducive to correct karmic growth. Also, actions that are opposite to that, in a sense that they extinguish self and cause spiritual darkness and suffering have a detrimental effect on the karmic body, but this is as far as my conjecture goes, and I again have to resort to your precious guidance\u201d, he smiled and nodded to the Goddess.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou are again correct in all your suppositions. The actions that promote sat-cit-ananda<\/i>, and I will further merely assume asmita<\/i>, as it is in fact the same phenomenon, since asmita<\/i> is satcitanandamaya<\/i>, are conducive to karmic growth, and this is for two main reasons. First is that such auspicious actions create a glow in the Relative that is reminiscent of brahman<\/i>, and kalapas<\/i> have an inherent longing to return to their origin in the Absolute, but they can only do so in the Relative, so they are attracted to the karmic structure whose inner light is the strongest. Goodness and manifestation of the inner nature of brahman<\/i> are like a strong beacon that attracts soul-particles the way fire attracts insects. This is true also on the macroscopic level, as good people attract other good people, and Gods attract all goodness in all of the Relative, as we are the ultimate expressions of brahman<\/i>. We can here establish that a karmic aggregate holds together due to the inherent attractive forces between the particles. This is a satcitanandamaya<\/i> force, it is of truth-wisdom-bliss. Evil actions, that which promote lies, ignorance and suffering, that oppose reality and lead away from all that is good and spiritually useful, create areas of low-attraction or even repulsion within the karmic structure, causing it to become structurally weak and prone to breakage, limiting its further growth until the structural flaws are removed, and they are removed by correct knowledge and correction of past error by good actions. Knowledge itself is not sufficient for removing those inclusions, as it needs to counter heavy inertia of past action, so a combination of realisation, suffering and action is usually required. The difference between impurity and structural flaw is that of degree. Actions that are mostly good, but contain a seed of ignorance and wrongness, create a structure that is of impure colour. Actions that are outright evil create structural defects and weaknesses that would lead to karmic segregation\u201d, she nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cI have seen this mentioned in the context of impurities on the four lower elements, those being earth, water, fire and air. As we are in the astral world, and those obviously do not refer to the material elements, they must be a metaphor?\u201d, he wondered.<\/p>\n
\u201cIndeed. Earth is, essentially, reality of a thing, its foundation in truth and fact. Believing in truth and fact grounds one in reality, and is thus purity of the element Earth. Element Water is energy, which can be pure or impure, and this is a level of interpersonal interactions. When they are pure, meaning those that promote truth, consciousness and bliss, it is said that one is pure in the element of Water. This is why the Gods always interact in an uninhibited, truthful and blissful way, and impure beings interact in ways that promote falsehoods, diminish happiness and introduce ignorance and incoherence. The third element is Fire, and by that we mean the mind in its creative function. If mind is pure, it creates actions and artefacts that affirm and promote truth, reality and bliss. For instance, one writes a book that reveals knowledge and dispels ignorance, and also makes readers feel good, causing them to partake in the inner nature of brahman<\/i>. Or, one invents and implements agricultural methods such as accumulation lakes and irrigation channels, that correct for the periods of drought, thus producing food where there would otherwise be famine. If one is of impure mind, he thinks of various things that will make others feel terrible, and promote ignorance and suffering, for instance making drugs that will make people feel good temporarily, but will harm them greatly in the long run; or they invent philosophies that flatter one\u2019s ego but eventually lead them to ruin. The fourth element, that of Air, is what we could call freedom. This element is the most abstract of the four. If one allows themselves freedom to be whatever is best and manifests the Will of God, it is said that one is pure in this element. If one imposes restrictions, such as requesting punishment for his past wrong action instead of just correcting them, or requires others to be restricted, limited and oppressed, he is impure in the element of Air. Purity of Air manifests as unrestricted love, thought and being, but unrestricted doesn\u2019t mean of whatever nature, including evil one; it means unrestricted nature of brahman<\/i>, who is sat-cit-ananda<\/i>. A purity of acceptance, freedom and happiness, and allowing God to take whichever form is the best, and also forgiveness and release of spiritual fetters, is purity of the element of Air. Since that element is usually the last to be mastered, purity of Air normally signifies purity on all four elements, which starts the process of sublimation into the fifth, also known as crystallisation into vajra<\/i>. This transformation fuses the gaseous particles of an astral body into a crystalline structure, where a huge cloud of astral matter compresses into a small crystal of vajra<\/i>. As one evolves further, this structure can grow bigger and also the frequency of its specific energy grows higher. However, if you followed me thus far, this is where you will ask an obvious question\u201d, she smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou mean, where does one get the kalapas<\/i> for this kind of growth, as one would assume that accretion of the free kalapas<\/i> from the surrounding space is a rather weak source, that might function well enough in the beginnings, but less so later on, and if I am to guesstimate, accreting all the free kalapas<\/i> from the astral world would hardly contribute anything to my current spiritual size\u201d, he nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou are again correct. Even much earlier in one\u2019s spiritual evolution, the main source of new kalapas<\/i> that integrate into one\u2019s karmic body is not the environment, but another phenomenon entirely. You see, new kalapas<\/i> are constantly being created; they are not a limited resource. The probability of new kalapas<\/i> being created is the greatest in places where the manifestation of brahman in the Relative is the greatest, as this makes the veil between the Relative and the Absolute the thinnest. A soul is by definition an aggregation of kalapas<\/i> in the Relative, which means it is a heightened manifestation of brahman<\/i> compared to the surrounding space, and its baseline of existence itself already guarantees that new kalapas<\/i> will more likely be born in a soul\u2019s core, than in the surrounding space. However, as one performs karmic actions that are really satcitanandamaya<\/i>, there\u2019s a literal fountain of new kalapas<\/i> opening in the core of one\u2019s soul, one\u2019s heart, metaphorically speaking, which is how good states of consciousness and good actions promote one\u2019s spiritual growth, at a much greater scale than would be possible by mere absorption of free kalapas<\/i> from the environment. And also, unlike the environmental kalapas<\/i> which are always of lower energy than your soul, and you need to extract this low-energy disturbance from them by the process of suffering and yoga<\/i>, the kalapas<\/i> from the fountain in your heart are of the highest energy your spiritual body can hold, so they mean instant growth without any of the drawbacks that come from other methods, such as taking on karma from others, or absorbing karmic bodies of the impure beings that you had to kill\u201d, she grinned.<\/p>\n
\u201cThis sounds like a self-promoting process where being a beacon of the light of brahman<\/i> in the Relative makes you a bigger beacon of light of brahman<\/i> in the Relative, until\u2026\u201d, he wondered.<\/p>\n
\u201cUntil me\u201d, she smiled and pointed at herself. \u201cUntil the unmanifested brahman<\/i> attains self-realisation as you; the opposite to what this flower or yourself do when you realize that you, in your true nature, are brahman<\/i>. Apotheosis is what takes place when the unmanifested brahman<\/i> realizes that it really, really wants to be Kay, and then I Am Her\u201d, she smiled and both her eyes and the jewel on her brow lit up. \u201cThe goal of evolution is not when you become brahman<\/i>, because you started by being brahman<\/i>; that\u2019s no achievement, and realization of the fact is good, but also doesn\u2019t do much for you. The goal of evolution is when God wants to be you, because you are so incredibly attractive to God as a self-expression nexus, that God attains self-awareness and self-actualization as you, and the veil between Relative and the Absolute that used to exist within your heart, and which became permeable and produced kalapa<\/i>-fountains during your evolution, breaks up and ceases to exist completely, as God becomes you, and you become a God\u201d, she was now positively glowing, and Shankaracarya\u2019s hair stood on end in awe, because he was looking as if at the core of a spiritual star.<\/p>\n
\u201cThis is a good lesson for me, my Lady\u201d, he managed to start using words again. \u201cYou know, I used to think that on Earth, it\u2019s best to be born human; of human births, it was the best to be born a brahmana<\/i> in India, and of brahmanic births, it was best to be born a man, because then you could go renounce the world and attain enlightenment. Now, I\u2019m talking to a woman who is so far above me in every conceivable metric, that the difference wouldn\u2019t be that much greater were I a woman from a low caste, or for that matter, a cow\u201d, he shivered. \u201cYou are like a huge ocean, but the stunning thing is that the ocean is not trying to swallow me and drown me, but instead lifts me up and makes me float, as its waters are wisdom and kindness; the knowledge that teaches and nurtures, not knowledge that humiliates and tears down. And as for the male and female thing, I for the life of me can\u2019t comprehend it. I used to think that gender was merely a property of the body, and as you transcend the physical, the soul remains not only genderless, but is also just one in all beings, truly. Maybe the most shocking part of my new understanding is that this is completely wrong. Can you please explain how souls can have such strong sexual dimorphism, because I have no idea how to explain this, and yet it is obviously true. You are not only God, but you are also the most feminine girl imaginable, and yet every understanding I used to have about women \u2013 how they are intellectually weaker, less prone to transcendence and so on \u2013 is obviously falsified by your person\u201d, he shrugged, looking confused.<\/p>\n
\u201cWe now seem to have made a full circle, coming back to the initial question of our conversation; that of the reason why Gods exist in male-female couples, with an exception of one male-double female triple. Also, your observation that the highest beings have the greatest degree of gender dimorphism, as if spiritual evolution abhors the gender-neutral, which exists in abundance on the lowest evolutionary tiers, but is literally nonexistent on the highest ones. The reason for this, of course, is not anything physical. Neither I nor my husband had a physical incarnation on Earth, and yet I am strongly female, and he is strongly male. So, obviously, the reason for our dimorphism isn\u2019t that evolution in a human body shapes you in one direction or the other, and this then persists as you keep evolving on the higher planes. In fact, it seems to be the other way around; Sanat Kumar couldn\u2019t design a functional physical world that wouldn\u2019t replicate the sexual dimorphism that exists on the soul planes, and the physical differences between human sexes seems to imperfectly mirror the structure of male and female souls. The main difference is that souls don\u2019t have sexual organs as separate structures; my entire soul, for instance, is my female sexual organ. It\u2019s as if we exist in either left or right crystalline alignment on the level of our fundamental spiritual structure, and it can work right only if it\u2019s either completely left or completely right. Having it part one, part another would create a fundamental imbalance, and the crystal would break in two along the separating line. Do you follow me?\u201d, she smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cI think I do. The reason why only strongly male and strongly female persons are accepted by brahman<\/i> as its persons \u2013 which is the opposite of how I used to conceptualise enlightenment, by the way \u2013 is because unclear, indistinct or ambiguous spiritual gender translates to a weak and imperfect crystalline structure, which would collapse long before the point in which apotheosis becomes an immediate prospect. I also understand now that enlightenment is not about transcendence of the personal as one comes to evolve enough to be able to understand the impersonal, but evolving the personal to the point where brahman<\/i> seems to decide that it is what represents its inner nature in the Relative. Also, this inner nature seems to be something that not only doesn\u2019t discriminate against being male or female, but on the contrary, outright refuses to be just one of the two, unless it is immediately balanced by its opposite-gendered counterpart. Why this is so, is something I don\u2019t yet understand\u201d, he shrugged.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt seems that the inner nature of brahman is such, that the only way to truly express it in the relative is a male-female relationship, which requires a perfect man, a perfect woman, and a perfect relationship between the two. This is something that balances reality that would otherwise be incapable of manifesting what\u2019s on the other side. The reason brahman accepted me as Herself is because of how female I am, and because of how much I love my husband, and how much I worship my elders. The reason brahman accepted my husband as Himself is because how male he is, and because of how much he loves me, his female counterpart, and how much he adores our elders. We started pretty much as you are \u2013 as angelic beings of vajra<\/i>. I was smaller and of lesser specific energy than you are now, while my husband was somewhat stronger and of higher frequency than you are. We were both newcomers; he used to be a very old and powerful demon who sought refuge in Lord Shiva, and I was a maid-servant of Lady Lakshmi. Since we were both lost in a heavenly plane, we got together, and we were so attracted to each other that we got married within minutes, and our lovemaking consisted of worshipping our elders, and drinking each other\u2019s energy, and we grew much stronger and greater very quickly. Then Lord Shiva and Lady Lakshmi came to explain things to us, blessed our union and left us to our own devices. My brilliant husband concluded that we have everything we need now, and we continued with out sadhana of worshipping the elder Gods and worshipping each other, and we attained apotheosis that same day, becoming the first new Gods after the Primordials\u201d, she glowed as she reminisced.<\/p>\n
\u201cSo this is why there are no celibate Gods. Brahman, essentially, refuses this and sees it as an abomination. Any such thing would need to be corrected at a much earlier phase, or one would be stuck in an evolutionary dead end\u201d, he nodded. \u201cBut what about the Buddhist triple? They seem to be an exception\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u201cNot really. They are all either strongly male, or strongly female. The third person isn\u2019t an imbalance, as both women are very strongly feminine, and the fact that they worship one another and it\u2019s a full three-way marriage seems to be the proper way to balance such a union. It would be imbalanced if the females repulsed each other, but since their energies are merged and blended, it works like a three-quark union in a proton\u201d, she smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d, he scratched his head.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, never mind, something from the physical world; some of the fundamental particles of the material world are structured in that way; in order to get a particle, you need two up quarks and one down quark, where two up quarks are of different \u2018colours\u2019, and the \u2018down\u2019 quark is of a third primary colour, and together they form a \u2018white\u2019 proton\u201d, she giggled. \u201cIt\u2019s the closest analogy for our beloved Buddhist triple that I could think of, but this structure is of course unknown to the physics of your era. I will open a data bank for you so you can absorb this knowledge\u201d, she waved her hand and Shankaracharya\u2019s eyes rolled up for a moment.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, I see\u201d, he noted. \u201cThe quantum chromodynamics. So you have red and green female, and a blue male in a triple, and this is the equivalent of a, let\u2019s say, black-white structure of a couple\u201d, he nodded. \u201cThe women are united in their common worship of the man, and they love each other the way one would love oneself in profound self-realization, and their mutual energy exchange is self-affirming through strengthening another female self of the triple. It\u2019s a wonderful relationship, if everybody is pure, and they are obviously perfect\u201d, he nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cThe difference between their relationship and the quantum chromodynamics metaphor is that they both together create a perfect white to complement his black, but the rest of the analogy holds\u201d, Kay nodded. \u201cIn any case, brahman strongly approves of their union and their persons, as each of them would rather die than see the third person removed from their bond, which is exactly how my husband and I feel about each other. Everything is either both of us, or none of us\u201d, she smiled blissfully.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat about homosexuals as a possibility?\u201d, he wondered. \u201cThere are many male worshippers on Earth that look distinctly feminised, with proclivities towards the same sex. What happens to them here?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe homosexual pairs tend to be quite polar; one always plays the feminine role, and the other masculine. Remove the physical body and the feminine homosexual male usually turns out to be a female soul, because even if a soul started as mostly male and took a male body, once they start practicing femininity the soul structure turns more female. It\u2019s the same with homosexual women. One tends to be feminine and the other masculine, and the masculine one is basically re-magnetising her soul to the male side and, unless she decides to reverse the process, turns completely male. But this is a very early stage of spiritual evolution, compared to what we are talking about here, and homosexuality is usually merely a consequence of some trauma or impurity that needs to be corrected. For instance, Mandy and Jess aren\u2019t Lesbians, despite the fact that they see each other as wives and are sexually completely interconnected to the point where you would probably kill both of them if you tried to disconnect them. They are more like two hemispheres in the brain of a single heterosexual, very feminine woman. Yes, this is the best explanation I can think of, since they both say that the other is more like their body part, and not a different person. I\u2019ve heard of conjoined twins on Earth, where you would have two women sharing the same body, but their brains are distinct. Now imagine them with brains completely neurally interconnected, the way two hemispheres of a normal brain are connected, and it\u2019s a three-way connection with Paddy, as well. It sounds complicated, but to them it\u2019s the simplest and most normal thing in the world, and brahman<\/i> obviously loves being them. Oh, I\u2019m opening another knowledge bank on human biology\u201d, she snickered.<\/p>\n
\u201cI see\u201d, he smiled after he absorbed the information.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut what do you get if a male and a female God achieve some kind of a perfect union in the Relative? Is that even a possibility, or are they necessarily separated since it\u2019s a requirement in the Relative?\u201d, he nodded curiously.<\/p>\n
\u201cA perfect union between a male and a female God is the full version of this\u201d, she tapped the golden jewel at her forehead. \u201cThe Throne of God. The foundation of Reality. It\u2019s the first emanation of the Absolute, which then further separates into a male-female couple, and then manifests vajras<\/i> and lesser energies, such as the astral substance\u201d, her jewel flashed briefly.<\/p>\n
\u201cI think brahmacharya<\/i> was a fundamental mistake, and I should have paid more attention to the tantrikas<\/em>\u201d, he waved his head in dismay. \u201cThey knew what they were talking about, while I was full of conceited nonsense\u201d.<\/p>\n \u201cI think you are being excessively harsh on yourself. Have you met a woman on Earth you wanted to marry, but you couldn\u2019t because of your vows?\u201d, Kay countered.<\/p>\n \u201cNo. In fact, brahmacharya<\/i> was a good excuse not to get involved with them\u201d, he smiled.<\/p>\n \u201cYou see; no harm done. Lady Hypatia was a brahmacharini<\/i> herself, not because of a vow, but simply because she never met a man she would fall in love with, at least on Earth. But once she met Azrael, or Lord Yama as you would call him, her entire virginity left her in seconds\u201d, she giggled. \u201cIt\u2019s not about being involved with the opposite sex. It\u2019s about finding your actual wife. Once you do, you can become a man I will want to be, so that I could make love to the woman I will want to become\u201d, she switched to the First Person, and her jewel flashed again.<\/p>\n \u201cI think I understand now\u201d, he nodded. \u201cBut I apologise for what I said in the beginning, that you are the least scary and intimidating of all the Gods known for their wisdom. It\u2019s actually hard to qualify \u2013 you are both so scary and intimidating in your omniscience and omnipotence, that I don\u2019t even have the word for it. Were I human, I\u2019d probably lose bladder control when your jewel flashes, that\u2019s how intimidating you are. And yet, you are the gentlest, kindest most intimidating person in the world\u201d, he smiled, waving his head in wonder. \u201cHow do you manage to be both? I would expect someone with your knowledge, intelligence and power to be a distant and terrifying towering figure, and yet you are none of that. You are approachable, kind, gentle and\u2026 cute, if that\u2019s an appropriate thing to call an omnipotent Goddess\u201d.<\/p>\n \u201cCute is perfectly appropriate\u201d, she giggled. \u201cMy secret for staying grounded is my submissive feminine nature. I adore and serve my husband. I adore and serve my elders. I would never do anything that would have them think less of me, I would never disobey them, and I never want to break their trust. They are everything to me, and as I feel that, I am perfectly grounded and free to be my girly self, even if it includes providing strategical analysis for the elders, or creating, modifying or destroying worlds\u201d, she nodded. \u201cBy staying obedient, worshipful and submissive, I am freed and grounded\u201d.<\/p>\n \u201cAnd how do the men do it? I mean, the male Gods?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThey ground through their women. They have a vulnerable perfect Goddess in their arms and their love just flows to her naturally, freeing them to be their natural selves. We, men and women, keep each other sane and normal. Each on our own, we would turn into insane monsters\u201d, she frowned. \u201cJust look at people on Earth. When male-female love breaks down, people turn into monsters. Whether they are male monsters that explode with aggression, or female monsters disgusting in their passive-aggressive victimhood and entitlement, it doesn\u2019t matter, as they are both vile. The male-female mutual worship, respect and service is the foundation of the world, and once that breaks, there\u2019s no bottom on that pit of hell\u201d, she shivered as she did simulations. \u201cSo, your brahmacharya<\/i> has served you well, for a time, but as all tools, it needs to be put aside when its work is done. When you find your woman, you will lay down that tool in some shed and forget you ever had it\u201d, she smiled at the angelic man. \u201cJust don\u2019t be a fool and cheat on your destined wife by finding just any woman now, because you think you should. To pick any woman is to betray the<\/i> woman\u201d.<\/p>\n \u201cAugustine did the similar wrong thing \u2013 he found his true wife more than half a millennium ago, and he sent her away in order to seek spirituality. Just yesterday he understood what a mistake that was, and cried to Christ to help him fix it. Fortunately, it was all well, as she was then not ready for him, and she used that time to level herself up and become his true equal\u201d.<\/p>\n \u201cA woman is not a crutch you now need to find in order to attain godhood. A woman is also not a worldly thing to renounce for spiritual reasons. A woman you seek needs to be someone who is so wonderful, that God will want to become you<\/i>, because you<\/i> are the proper way to adore her<\/i>\u201d, she concluded.<\/p>\n \u201cMy Lady, I bow to you in deepest respect, and I will take your teaching to heart immediately and most seriously, with the greatest gratitude of a humble student who was graced to be in the presence of the Greatest and the Highest. All glory to you!\u201d, he bowed.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u201cLady Karuna, may I have a moment of your time, please?\u201d, a strikingly blue angel bowed. \u201cBy all means, Sri Shankaracharya\u201d, the girl smiled and curtsied. \u201cHow can I be of assistance?\u201d \u201cSince the end of my life on Earth, … Continue reading