As you could probably guess from the previous article, one can be half enlightened, half fucked up, and overall a complete mess, and people in general don’t understand how that’s possible, thinking that you are either/or, but never both. Well, they are sort of right, because you can’t be a complete and perfectly pure soul crystal, let alone a person of God, and have issues such as trying to be a “strong independent woman”, or one of those “gurus” who are making a name for themselves but not in a good way.

However, “complete” or “full” anything is rare in this world; hardly anyone is a complete fool or a madman, let alone enlightened. A partially enlightened person, however, is a real test for one’s discernment. I’m not even talking about those occasional people with an experience of samadhi, but no virtues worth speaking of, and often little to no sanity either. They can call themselves enlightened, and they can even pass as enlightened in some misguided belief systems, but most people would correctly identify them as insane in some way and avoid them, so the amount of harm they can do is very limited. I’m talking about souls that are partially crystallised, and partially rotten like a bad tooth, who combine Divinity and Insanity in the same person, and provide evidence of both. Imagine someone espousing a worldview that combines feminism, satanism, Wicca and Vedanta, and powers that abominable mixture with a charisma and lesser miracles derived from an actual Divine internal source. Think it’s too far-fetched to be true? Think again. Enlightenment, madness, knowledge, ignorance, corruption and goodness can all coexist in the same person, creating abundance of mischief and confusion in the world that’s already fucked up as it is.

When we add this problem to the existing issue of people having very little clue on what actual spirituality and enlightenment looks like, what ends up happening is the unrealistic expectation of what a fully enlightened person is supposed to look like, when people put all those half-crazies on a heap, see what they are like, and conclude that a fully enlightened person would be nothing like that. They create an idealised image of some Jesus-like figure walking on air and water, raising the dead from the cemeteries as he passes by, glowing in the dark and not needing anything material for sustenance, that an actual Jesus could never live up to, and claim that anything less is fake and crazy.

That’s why I said that half-crazy, half-enlightened mixtures are a real test of one’s discriminatory abilities, because a common fool would either accept them uncritically, or reject a true incarnation of God due to inability to distinguish it from a partial one. The actual truth is that things are complicated, in both this world and the other one. Nothing can save you from using your brain for its intended purpose, which is what I keep repeating because it’s true. If there was a rulebook you could consult, all the fake gurus in the world would be the first ones to memorise it and make sure to pass all the checks and look most enlightened. The truly enlightened people, on the other hand, wouldn’t care about those things, because they aren’t trying to pass your checks and tests.

So, unlike what people normally think – that you have all kinds of fake gurus trying to present themselves as enlightened in order to benefit from deceiving people – the truth is even more complicated: you have crazy people who are deluded into thinking they are spiritual; then you have deceivers who may or may not also be crazy to some extent, who are in it for power and worldly benefits; then you have people who are actually enlightened to a degree, with some actual spiritual powers, but who are also seriously fucked up and half past crazy from high spiritual energies powering up their madness and karmic corruption, creating a fireworks of raw sewage combined with occasional pearls of actual holiness. And then you have the fully enlightened people who are usually accused of being fake and crazy because they look too ordinary. If you lack discernment, and in order to have the ability to discern you need to be able to recognise what God feels like, you are at risk of dismissing the real thing or accepting false guidance, and I don’t know which of the two is worse.

I know all of this sounds terrible, but tough shit, because that’s what we have to deal with here. This is not a world of clarity, but a world of mixed realities, where God, Satan and everything in between has been put in a blender, thoroughly mixed, and we now have to try to work through that mess with a goal of reaching the other end in no worse shape than we started with, and hopefully better. An inexperienced person has no chance of figuring anything out; they will get it wrong every single time, and even if they accidentally get it right, they’ll fuck it up in the next iteration. However, after multiple instances of getting it wrong and suffering, and getting it right and losing it by mistake, wisdom gradually crystallises in one’s soul and one develops an instinct that guides them, but it’s not always pointing at the right direction. One who chose evil will develop a reliable instinct for choosing evil and rejecting God in every next iteration. One who chose God will develop an instinct for recognising what God feels like, the way a magnet reliably recognises iron filings even when they are intermixed with sand. It’s not 100% reliable, but it improves, not because you develop experience, but because you develop virtuous inner qualities that react positively to God, and negatively to bullshit. That’s what spiritual evolution is about, and that’s why discernment is not an intellectual feature, but a symptom of a soul’s maturity and true spiritual status.