Lopsided

“We had many new angels, some of extreme evolvement and sophistication, and yet no new Gods”, Zina noted, sipping coffee. “I wonder why that may be”.

“I think it’s because they all fit a certain profile. They are men, celibate, renunciates. They practice some sadhana that is highly effective, they learn how to enter a state of oneness with the Absolute, they learn how to control their energy system so that they stay there, but as for karmic evolution, the results are modest, because they simply don’t touch that part; they ‘transcend it’, as they themselves would say. Even those, who actually attain great results, don’t seem to impress God as much as they impress fellow humans. As a result, God doesn’t claim them”, Buddha shrugged.

“But what about bhakti and tantra? The bhaktas should, at least in theory, be doing the same thing we are. Tantra should, in theory, be allowing couples to evolve together”, his wife countered.

“In theory”, he conceded. “In practice, bhaktas tend to be more hysterical than transcendental. When they are successful, they tend to return to Gods as servants, rather than becoming their companion-Gods. Tantrikas for the most part devolved into practitioners of dark magic, and it’s not having good spiritual outcomes. Also, they are using women as a tool for sexual meditation, rather than using sex as means of mutual worship between a male and a female practitioner. That, too, isn’t having good spiritual outcomes. Some of it is outright terrible – orgies, debauchery, demon worship, dark magic, even ritual sacrifice. Not only is it not on the level of Padmasambhava and his holy wives; it’s on the level of some demonic cesspool”, he shivered from the recollection.

“What about yoga?”, she offered. “Let me guess – it’s contaminated by the impersonal concept of brahman, which tries to transcend or outright ignore karma rather than evolving it, and they use methods that work until a certain point, and then they fail to improvise and get stuck?”

“Yes. Also, when they come here, almost none of it works, or makes any sense whatsoever, because it’s all based around certain properties of the physical body. Asanas are pointless here, so are the pranayamas. Pratyahara and dharana are pointless, as the defaults of astral and vajra bodies do it all by default. Dhyana and samadhana are also pointless, as they don’t produce any advancement here, unlike in the physical body, where they train the brain to extend meditative states. Here, you are just stuck at square one. Raja yoga doesn’t do anything because the body does it by default, and so on. Essentially, the only things that actually work here are various forms of bhakti – worship, love, service, and so on. However, those who practice bhakti down there usually practice some form of emotional hysteria, while those who practice yoga rarely do it in order to enhance devotional practice. They usually over-specialise, and since simplistic theories seem to win there, they get more adherents, who don’t develop into well-rounded personalities. The end result, unfortunately, is less than we hoped for”, he shrugged.

“Also, we are getting disproportionally more male than female practitioners, which is concerning”, she noted. “Obviously, it’s because of the nature of most forms of practice, which completely sideline family life, and over-emphasise renunciation, which is practised mostly by men. So, even when those men attain some result, it’s usually partial crystallisation of the karmic body, but with seriously undeveloped parts that would have anything to do with women. Essentially, they function well in a cave or a forest, but if you put them near a woman, they wouldn’t know what to do with her. They would either rape her or treat her as if she were some sort of a cow”, she smirked. “And whatever you try to do to make them fix the issue, they just do more of the same, because they think it works, and repetition of the same will certainly bring them to enlightenment”.

“We got a large number of semi-crystallised dark mages and, I don’t even know what to call them. Some are actual nightmares, vile as serpents that live under a rock and hate everybody, thinking themselves superior because they are above the world. Some have inflated ego because they are worshipped by ‘common people’ and they learned all sorts of ways of ‘looking spiritual’ as to attract adulation. Some of it is outright fakery, some of it is abuse of genuine spirituality for manipulative purposes. They attain partial crystallisation, but the part of their soul that is not crystallised is usually in worse condition than with the average people. It presents us with complex problems, because such people think they know what God is, what spiritual practice is, what the result is, and when you try to explain, they nod as if they understand, and it’s clear that it goes right past them. Honestly, I don’t have a straightforward idea on how to solve those problems and turn them into souls that will continue to evolve, rather than being stuck in a stagnant state, where they will repeat the same mistakes and think they are doing sadhana, and are better than others since they are such hard working practitioners”, Buddha shrugged. “I was actually something similar in my earthly life. I did things that didn’t work, but which won me acclaim among the fellow practitioners. As I did it more, I actually harmed my health and would have died. When I gave it all up and started using common sense, I attained enlightenment very quickly, but the fellow practitioners thought I had apostatised from the true path because I ceased to starve myself to death and do pointless activities. False spiritual practice is in fact quite rewarding to the ego”.

“I think Satan is one of the reasons why some things stop working after the initial successes”, his wife considered. “He thinks of an antidote for success, and diverts practitioners into some dead-end that is instantly rewarding but ultimately pointless”.

“Be it as it may, people need very little incitement to do just that on their own, I’m afraid”, he shrugged.

“Also, other than the initial impulse of tantra, most practices target mostly men, creating extremely unbalanced populations of practitioners, as well as practitioners themselves that are extremely unbalanced within themselves. It is not surprising that they fail to attain true enlightenment, let alone apotheosis – metaphorically speaking, God abhors them. Also, metaphorically speaking, if you don’t develop such character that a God-person of the opposite sex will fall in love with you to the point of wanting to spend eternity together, you failed in your spirituality”, Zina nodded.

“You hit that nail right on the head”, Buddha smiled approvingly. “But it doesn’t need to be completely straightforward. I, for example, developed alone, but I was balanced, to the point where I needed just a small nudge from you to show me the next level of evolution, and I went for it. Some of those people invest huge asymmetrical efforts, as if exercising only the right side of their bodies, and end up looking like freaks, and the power of habit they developed is such that you can no longer teach them anything, because they think they know. We’ll have to ask Lord Shiva and his Lady about them, since their mastery in those matters is peerless, for I am at my wit’s end”, he shrugged.

“Honestly, some of those people don’t just look like freaks; they are freaks. Imagine, for instance, someone who spent decades sharpening his mind, controlling breath, developing clarity of consciousness, doing Kundalini kriyas, but seems to be utterly incapable of such a simple thing as loving a woman. A whole sewage dump seems to erupt at the very thought, as the idea of a woman is associated with worldly attachments, losing oneself in the world, lack of emotional control and complex mental faculties, and so on. To them, loving a woman brings associations similar to having intercourse with a goat that also leads you to spiritual ruin. And they don’t understand that this is all indoctrination with nonsense; they think it’s an absolute, unquestionable truth. And, of course, as such a civilisation marginalises and sidelines women, they indeed become the neglected and inferior gender, and the output of the function feeds back into the inputs, seemingly confirming it. I processed men from such cultures. First they thought I was a maid servant of some man who is doing the actual job and asked me to bring them to my master. Then they outright refused to believe that I can be competent, and eventually they were completely paralysed with shock. I wonder how they would have reacted to someone like Lady Shakti or Lady Kay”, she smiled.

“The same”, her husband shrugged. “They are conditioned to assume that femininity means stupidity, and it’s a serious problem, as such lopsided cultures produce lopsided, dysfunctional people. Both men and women from such cultures tend to be spiritually messed up to the point where we can’t do anything with them other than send them back to Earth, since they are incapable of normal life here. Women who are raised to be hardly more than goats end up actually being hardly more than goats, and men tend to react to women in terribly disgusting ways; imagine such a specimen trying to rape a female angel or treat her as if she’s stupid. Here, they would be a virulent contamination. On Earth, I’m afraid they are normal”.

“Some actually tried to do something similar with me, thinking I was a pleasure toy given to them by their god as a reward for killing enough ‘infidels’. The women, on the other hand, expected me to show them the way to the kitchen. The worst were the semi-crystallised mages trained in some sort of an impersonalistic religious philosophy, such as vedanta or sufism. They try to make me disperse or change form, thinking I’m a construct of their minds, and they use extreme mental focus in an imperious manner. Thank God for the protective features of my job, that shield me from such violence, for some of them are truly powerful and their attacks would probably have harmed me otherwise”, she shivered.

“That world certainly lived up to the expectation of creating different and unusual types of souls. Unfortunately, this very rarely translates to ‘better’”, Buddha mused.

“Well, it produced you, and that alone made it worth all the failures”, she smiled and kissed him.

Consolation

“Nothing built on the unstable foundations of that world lasts forever”, Lord Padmasambhava shrugged. “It had a good run; eight hundred years or so. Also, it was in decline for quite a while already. Now, the University of Nalanda has moved to the higher ground”, he grinned and showed hundreds of souls around him in the apple orchard.

“It’s a great loss for the Earth, though”, Kay nodded seriously and sipped her coffee.

“It’s a great loss for the Earth when a wise person dies. It is a great loss for the Earth when unique copies of valuable books are burned. It was a great loss when the library of Alexandria was burned. It was a great loss when Constantinople was sacked by the crusaders. It is also a great loss for the Earth when nothing improves for centuries, and nobody does anything with those books. It’s a place of loss, and nothing is ever safe there while Mara reigns. You know that better than I do”, he smiled at the Mind of God. “Everything we build there is temporary, and against forces that are certain to erase it eventually”.

“Still, please accept my sympathy for the pain of loss that you’re experiencing, Paddy”, she grinned. “You’re not fooling me with the impermanence talk”.

“There’s no fooling you, sweetheart”, he smiled bitterly. “But we all knew what was to happen when we saw the trajectory of Islam. We also see the trajectory of the Mongols. But the Europe is waking up from its long decline. The wars of conquest are shuffling the deck of cards, and who knows what results of it all will arrive here for us to witness. Even Mara himself, trying to do his worst, sometimes sets things in motion that bear good fruits”, he pointed to two young angels talking to one of his wives.

“Lady Jess, aren’t you Gods jealous when people worship other Gods more?”, the little girl asked. “I mean, in church they told us that God is a jealous God and he doesn’t like it when people worship anyone else”.

“You mean, will I be mad at you and your brother because you came to learn from me how to worship Lady Hypatia better?”, the Goddess smiled at the girl, who nodded shyly.

“Not even a little bit, Hilde. In fact, we are very happy to help you worship other members of our family. I think it is the same as how you would feel if someone wanted to do something nice for your parents or brother. How would you feel about that?”

“It would make me very happy and I would be glad to help them in any way I can”, the girl smiled.

“But why did the priest say the God is jealous, then?”, Albert asked.

“It is hard for me to know exactly what he meant, as I am not him. However, a God would feel bad if people worshipped things that are not manifestations of the Absolute – for instance, if they worshipped Satan, who is evil, or if they worshipped evil spirits, or gods that are made up and false, and would get their souls lost. But you worshipping my sister Hypatia makes me feel great – and even the priests would agree that it’s fine if you worshipped Jesus more than his Father, because they are the same God”.

“I hate Satan”, the boy frowned. “He made us freeze and starve in his world, and he then tried to buy our Father’s soul when he was desperate to save us. Satan is evil. Why don’t you Gods kill him, so that he can do no more evil?”

“He is indeed evil”, the Goddess nodded. “And we wouldn’t mind getting rid of him at all. But it’s a complicated thing. You see, before Satan created that evil world, there were only four Gods. Now, there are fifteen. Also, the angels now have useful things to do, and they are growing spiritually. You and your Mother wouldn’t have been born if not for that world. It’s the lesson Lady Kay taught us – she is very powerful, and she could go back in time and make it so that Satan never got the opportunity to make that world, and create all that suffering. But if she did that, most of her family would never have been born. Would you choose Satan never to have made Earth, if that meant you and your sister and your mother would stop existing?”, she smiled.

“No”, both children waved their heads. “That would be terrible”.

“So, you agree that Satan did serve some good purpose, even if he is evil and he will do even more evil in the future?”

“Yes. Sure, he tried to trick Father out of his soul, but after he died he asked our Lady for help, and she cried and sent a part of her soul to us. He didn’t plan for this, but it still happened, because good people reacted in good ways to his evil”, Hilde nodded.

“And so in the future, many such things may yet happen, that we don’t know of at this time. We could kill Satan now, but then some God like Lady Hypatia or myself would not be born. Would you want that?”

“No”, Hilde replied. “You and our Lady are wonderful and kind, and even if Satan did terrible things, and many people suffered, you are worth it”, she nodded emphatically.

“Thank you, sweetheart”, the Goddess smiled at her. “So, you see now why we let it all happen?”

“Because being able to do something doesn’t mean it’s a good idea”, Albert nodded. “You could easily stop evil, but then you would also stop some great good things from taking place, and that would be terrible”.

“There’s one more thing I would like to know”, the girl asked. “There used to be an equal number of girl and boy Gods before, and now there is one girl more. Isn’t it now unbalanced? Does it mean the girls can make boys do something they otherwise wouldn’t, because there’s more of them?”

“It doesn’t matter. Even if the Gods were all girls and there was only one boy, we would never do anything he would disapprove of, because we all love each other. If one of us is unhappy with something, we would never do it. We would try to find out what would make him happy, and then we would do that. Intentionally making one of our family unhappy is unthinkable for any of us, and we all try to make each other feel happy and loved. You see Lady Kay talking to my husband over there?”, she pointed, and the children nodded. “She heard that terrible things happened on Earth in the place where Lord Paddy learned, lived and taught others. The Muslims came and burned everything down, and they killed many Buddhists. She thought he would be unhappy about this and so she brought him coffee and tries to console him”.

“Oh. So that’s like when my sister was hurt and she cried, and I held her to make her feel better?”, the boy nodded.

“Exactly. The idea that girl Gods would use their numbers to do something boy Gods would not like, that would never happen. It just means that more girl Gods will bring coffee and come to talk when a boy God is sad, the way Lady Karuna came to my husband”, she smiled. “Also, when Lady Hypatia was sad about your family, the boy Gods consoled her and Lord Shiva grew angry with Satan and swore vengeance, and he in fact took her tears and brought them down to Earth to you. When one of the girl Gods is distraught and doesn’t know what to do, all the boys get together to help”.

“This is awesome, and we want to be like that, too”, the children nodded.

“Well, that’s why we’re here”, the Goddess smiled.

Bearer of light

“By definition, we will know only about his failures”, Azazel noted. “If he managed to acquire someone’s soul, that person will not arrive here to tell us about it”. The war council was more chaotic than usual this time, since the threat description was the most vague they ever faced. “This means we need to find out his success ratio, to begin with”.

“But what’s the actual point of this? Why does he need souls? Is he trying to absorb them into himself? Use their energy to fix some degenerative issue he is facing?”, Zina shrugged.

“I think I have a good enough idea of what he’s doing, although I’m not so certain about why”, Shakti took the word.

“Tell me, how do you catch a mouse?”, she smiled at Zina.

“Well, you make a trap, and then put a piece of something mice like to eat inside it, so that he would be attracted inside, and couldn’t come out later”, Zina smiled back.

“Exactly. But what happens when you leave the trap unattended for a while?”, Shakti proceeded with her argument.

“You will find a trap full of half-eaten mice and mouse skeletons inside, with maybe one live mouse, if you came soon enough, because as they won’t be able to come out, they will starve and resort to cannibalism”, Zina frowned.

“And let’s say the bait is of some kind that can’t be consumed, and remains attractive forever. Let’s say it’s a sound that attracts deer, of the kind hunters will use to lure them into the kill zone. And let’s say the sound keeps making itself, powered by wind or water, so that you don’t need a man there to make it. And let’s say a kill zone is something like a cliff masked by natural fog, where the deer will come and fall to their deaths”, Shakti nodded.

“You would have a perpetual, automatic killing machine”, Azazel commented. “So that’s what you meant by attractors. You think he’s using the powerful souls as an energy source that will serve as bait for some trap he will use in order to lure souls into something fatal”.

“But why? Isn’t his world itself enough of a fatal trap? Souls are already being caught in a reincarnation loop there, thinking they’ll do better the next time, correct their errors, pay for their sins, acquire something that they failed to acquire before and so on. If he wanted to cause harm and show that most souls are foolish and are in heaven merely by accident, because nothing really tested them before, then mission accomplished. Making it more lethal would contribute very little to what he already has, while exposing him to possible karmic repercussions if he goes too far”, Zina countered.

“That would certainly be the case for the world as he initially made it, the extremely spiritually deadly kind you were exposed to in your earthly life”, Lord Shiva joined the discussion. “However, we’ve been making moves of our own. We introduced transcendence and hope where there used to be nothing but darkness and despair. We introduced sources that were converted into actual knowledge down there. Lord Buddha started the process. It was developed upon by Lord Vishnu who sent Jesus down there, and introduced sources of eternal light. They have a Church that teaches things that are true enough to really lead to salvation. They have Hindu scriptures that actually tell true things about actual Gods. They have access to puja and bhakti, which are similar enough to what we practice ourselves. At this point, the world consists of his darkness, and genuine sources of light that lead to salvation”.

“And he wants to introduce sources of light of his own – not false light that could easily be dismissed, but true spiritual light; only leading onto perilous paths that cause ruin”, Azazel nodded.

“Exactly”, his father smiled. “As things stand now, any source of light you find will lead you to salvation. The mission is simple: find spiritual light, hold on to it, wait until you die and you are saved. What he seems to be up to is introducing alternatives, where the light is real, but if you follow it you are ruined”.

“And the result will be either much reduced effectiveness of everything we’ve done so far, or people will stop following spiritual light of any kind, because of the great probability that it is ruinous”, Shakti nodded at her husband.

“And he won’t have to lift a finger. He will just arm the trap and let the mice eat each other, each thinking that the prior victims were losers and he himself will do better, probably due to some intoxicating effect of the bait”, Zina joined in.

“Do we have anything specific? I mean, it’s good to understand the general idea, but I’d like to see what he actually did, so that we can develop countermeasures”, Azazel looked at his mother questioningly.

“It’s hard to figure it out from the outside, because we don’t actually have access to the things the Jewel is doing in there, so we are forced to draw conjecture based on whatever evidence manages to find its way out, which is doubly difficult because if his traps work, the victims don’t come out”, Shakti shrugged. “However, Lord Buddha has found a pattern in some of his recent ‘patients’, so I’ll let him explain”, she smiled to Shakyamuni.

“They call themselves ‘good men’ and ‘good women’, ‘the pure ones’, ‘the ones favoured by God’. The Christians call them the Cathari, which means ‘the pure ones’ in Greek. The origins of the philosophy seem to be Zoroastrian, like the Manicheans that were around during the late Roman period. They teach that there are two opposed Gods in action – one evil one that created the material world with all the evil and suffering, and the good one that created the spiritual world, with souls, angels and Jesus. They think the souls get trapped into a reincarnation cycle on Earth because they are attracted by the material world and what it has to offer, and the solution is to let go and purify oneself from all the material desires and inclinations”, Buddha raised his eyebrows significantly.

“This looks pretty much spot on”, Kay remarked. “It’s actually more accurate than what the Church teaches, and among the most technically accurate theologies I’ve ever seen developed down there”.

“It is, but it only goes to say that theological accuracy isn’t all that you would expect it to be. Because, you see, they have one major flaw”, he sighed. “Their moral teaching is incredibly bad. They essentially say that in order to get purified from the world, you need to accept a vow of extreme renunciation that is in essence suicide by starvation. But if you don’t aspire to perfection, it’s enough to not take things seriously. Know that the world is not important. It doesn’t matter what you do, because it’s just matter, an opposite to the spirit which is pure. There is no truth in the world, so it doesn’t matter if you say the truth or not. It doesn’t matter whether you steal, rape or murder, because it’s just matter, and if you kill people you free them from the physical so you’re actually helping them. If you steal their things, it’s fine because they were attached to things and shouldn’t be, and everybody should have access to them anyway, because all men are equal. Do you now see the problem?”, he asked nobody in particular.

“It’s all the exact opposite of what you need to do in order to be a good person and not destroy your soul with evil”, the Love of God nodded. “You don’t hold on to truth and do good because physical matter is important, but because speaking the truth and doing good is what makes your soul good and true. You need to act as if everything matters even if you’re under an illusion, because by doing so, you become the one who matters. If you act as if nothing matters, your soul will be lost”.

“Exactly”, her husband nodded in assent. “What I noticed in the memories of the victims of the Cathari, who ended up being my patients, is how the Cathari acted. They were like beasts that were let out of a cage, filled with self-righteousness of the ones who are on the right path and who know the true light. They looked as if under influence of some drug that caused arrogance and hubris; they thought they were fighting the evil oppressors and fighting for what is right, for equality and emancipation from the yoke of the Church and the feudal system and so on”.

“This sounds very familiar”, Azazel’s eyes were wide. “It’s as if I’m listening to Sanat Kumar again, in his deranged madness”.

“Thank you for that information, my friend, for it confirms my guesses. Sanat Kumar created some kind of a script, powered by genuine spiritual sources, that amplifies mental patterns that resemble his own, and in direct proportion to the similarity. I don’t think he created the Cathari to oppose the Church; that would be too simplistic, and also too specific. I think he’s trying to turn souls into copies of himself, as they aggregate around the attractors like moths around the flame”, Buddha finished.

“This is giving me flashes of memories, and not of the kind I would prefer to have”, Azazel nodded grimly. “It fits his pattern exactly – he speaks of emancipation of souls, but what he means is turning them into lesser copies of himself, over which he will reign supreme. He also couldn’t stop talking about conspiracies of the ruling elite, which in his case meant the Gods, to whom he attributed all sorts of invented nonsense, and different each day as he rambled on. I think he will empower this mentality in others, make them drunk with hubris, make them overthrow any system in power the way he wanted to overthrow the Gods and the system of dharma, and the Cathari are merely a specific case of this madness, and likely a lesser one, as his attractors grow in power. And I would also expect the souls that fall under the influence of the attractors to basically be destroyed after death and join the power of the attractor, because it was what they chose as their destiny”, he concluded.

“And the worst thing about it is, I have no idea how to counter it effectively, other than by dismantling the attractors themselves, breaking down their power source to the level of kalapas and spending it all”, Shiva shrugged grimly. “It’s an incredibly elegant design”.

“Is there evidence that the attractors absorb their victims and thus grow the size of the ‘bait’?”, Azazel asked.

“Let me run the equations”, the Mind of God nodded. “Yes. The souls choose that light source as their spiritual direction, and end up belonging to it. It thus grows bigger. However, since all the impurities and evils also join it, the source grows more corrupted and less pure as it grows in size. It eventually ends up looking like a terrible abomination, and, as such, loses attractiveness and becomes more easily discernible as evil by the souls that seek the way out”, she nodded.

“Is there a way we can oppose this?”, Lady Zina asked her husband.

“Not really”, he shrugged. “Any direct opposition would feed it, as it would be interpreted as darkness trying to extinguish their true light. It can’t be dismantled from the outside. We also can’t blame Sanat Kumar for any of it since he’s doing what he said he would initially – provide alternatives. He’s certainly doing that. He’s also not forcing anyone to choose”.

“Can we at least stop his soul-purchasing? He’s claiming to offer deals. Is there evidence that he’s holding up to his side of the bargain?”, Lord Jesus scratched his chin.

“It would be in his long-term interest to uphold his part, especially since it’s usually quite easy for him”, Lord Buddha answered. “If he’s cheating, it brings him minor benefits at the cost of the whole project failing. Thus, self interest will motivate him to be fair”.

“Yes, in a direct sense, where you will get what you agreed for in exchange for your soul. However, he’s likely to cause the problem he offers to solve, in the first place”, Azazel noted.

“How immediate is this problem?”, Zina looked at everybody.

“It’s a slow rolling avalanche. He will need centuries to build momentum, as he needs quite a bit of power to get anywhere close to the level of attractiveness of what we installed through our labours”, Lord Vishnu offered. “However, as I see it, he will approach equal attraction within a few centuries, with the curve starting to grow exponentially after that. At some point, he will completely overwhelm and dwarf our efforts”.

“You mean, he is going to win?”, Mary of Magdala voiced her incredulity.

“No”, he waved decisively. “All he’s doing is inherently self-defeating. He’s creating one hysterical mania after another – all kinds of revolutionary and ‘liberation’ movements one after another, that will throw men and women into a furnace, but all the ‘victories’ he can achieve will be illusory and eventually cautionary. He will demonstrate that all the paths alternative to the one we are showing end up in pools of blood and terrible misery. And, as he will exhaust his attempts, he will also run out of time”.

“But until he does, he will cause terrible harm. As he powers his conspiracy theories with those genuine spiritual sources, he will convince the souls of all kinds of terribly harmful ideas that will keep having consequences long after he is gone”, Azazel spoke out his despondency. “I’ve heard enough of his nonsense to know how insidious it is, how it affects your thinking patterns and how it turns you into a resentful, self-sabotaging mess”.

“We will keep losing souls at an increasing pace, and damage to the survivors will be such that we might have to quarantine them indefinitely, because they could otherwise harm others with their madness”, Buddha conceded. “So far, the damage we had to contend with was caused mostly by suffering and loss, and, rarely, by the willing acceptance of evil. With all those attractors he is about to install, he will cause true deviations from the spiritual path, of the kind where people genuinely believe them to be the actual path of emancipation and a greater truth. Satan resented souls that were greater than him. He might cause everybody to resent any form of greatness and power, interpreting it as injustice and abuse. He will encourage hubris, arrogance and defiance. He will portray love as weakness, service as humiliation, and satisfaction as a sign of inferiority. The level to which this can be destructive can’t even be predicted. Sure, I expect his first trial runs, such as the Cathari, to be wiped out. But eventually, something of that sort is going to actually take hold, and then hell is going to reign on Earth”.

“Hell reigns on Earth where Islam reigns, or where the Cathari currently reign, or where the Mongols pass. The only places where hell doesn’t reign are where our tears touched the Earth, or where our light has broken through, and he did everything he could to splatter mud all over those places, to keep them inconspicuous. While he is in power, hell reigns on Earth, period, and we are merely treating the casualties. But eventually, we’ll have to finish this in some way that will end this disaster, and hopefully in a good way, right?”, Lady Lakshmi asked.

“Yes”, Lord Shiva nodded decisively. “My wife and I will deal with this ourselves, as the end approaches. But until then, we must contend with limiting the damage on an individual basis. Inspire the good, help those who suffer, shine the light that will bring them home safely. And considering the amount of spiritual damage he is about to inflict, dealing with the aftermath is not going to be a picnic”, he smiled as if he ate a lemon.

“So, we’re about to have an age of enlightenment, with all the light he will be shining, generous and good soul that he is”, Kay grinned mischievously. “Oh joy, oh splendour”.

A vow

“Daddy, why didn’t Jesus and Mary save us when we prayed to them?”

The man sighed and considered the question for a while. “It is complicated, Albert, but I’ll try to tell you how I see it. It’s not necessarily exactly right, because I don’t know much either, but I will try”. The child nodded seriously.

“I don’t think the Church taught us exactly how things are. You can see for yourself how things are different than we were taught. For instance, they said that Jesus brought salvation to mankind, but they meant it in a sense of forgiveness of sins, and in reality, it seems to be about the light of God reaching through the darkness of the world, so that everybody who holds on to it and believes in it could be saved. However, the Church teaches that everybody has a soul, and that the souls are all equal, and that doesn’t seem to be the case at all, because there are much more people on Earth than there are souls that came from heaven. And so, it seems that I had a soul; more accurately, that I was a soul, while you, your sister and mommy were born on Earth for the first time and you could develop souls, but it would require some time, and you just started forming souls when you died. This means you would have either died for real, as your body died, or you would have gone to a place where souls go if they don’t know or don’t care about God”, he frowned.

“Does this mean that the light our Lady sent to us gave us God?”, the little girl asked.

“I think it means exactly that, Hilde. When I died and came before her, I pled with her to save you, and she told me there is nothing she can do, because that world is under the rule of Satan and God has no power there other than spiritual influence and pointing the way out, which Jesus bought with his sacrifice on the cross. She wept with me as she sent me away, and I was certain that nothing could be done and was heartbroken. However, as we were later told, she was so distraught that she sacrificed a part of her own soul and sent it to the three of you, so that if you accepted her light, you could have eternal life and come to live here with me”, he smiled at his daughter.

“Does this mean that our Lady is greater than Jesus? If Jesus couldn’t save us, and she did, does it mean she is the real God?”, the girl frowned.

“No. From what I was told, the Lady and Jesus are equals. Both are persons of the One True God, and they seem to be like brother and sister. They are both equally holy and we need to respect them. Lady Hypatia, however, made a personal sacrifice for our family, the way Jesus did for all of Earth, and this is why our family owes her a great debt and we will always worship her as our personal saviour”, he finished, and both children nodded seriously.

“But why is this an exception? I am sure that many others suffered like we did. Many people in our village died of hunger just this winter, and yet we heard that we are the first case in history that someone was saved like we were? Wouldn’t it be righteous that all are saved?”, his wife voiced her thoughts.

“It’s a good question. However, from what I managed to understand listening to Lord Teacher Padmasambhava, righteousness has absolutely nothing to do with any of it. In essence, Satan created that world to spite God. The souls that went there did so out of their own free will, and against Gods’ advice. This means nobody owed me anything, as I made my own choice and the fact that it turned out bad was my own fault. As for you, you were born there according to the natural order of things in that place, and you also had no claim to any special treatment. The Judges of Karma that receive the dead are volunteers; they help out of the goodness of their hearts, not out of duty or obligation of any kind. They could all stop doing it at any moment and nobody would think worse of them, let alone punish them. God sent Jesus there out of his goodness and compassion, not out of obligation. In essence, we don’t have the right to anything, quite literally. We mixed our fates with Satan, or were born in his world, and if we had any rights to begin with, we forfeited them as we got involved with his rebellion against God. The very fact that there are Gods who spend most of their time helping the unfortunate souls that come to heaven from Earth, all broken and suffering, is a great mercy in itself. The fact that God put the Light of Christ in the world to give us hope and salvation is also a great mercy. But what the Lady did for us, it exceeds anything that ever happened to anyone in the history of mankind. She wept for us and pled our case before other Gods, and sacrificed a part of her own soul to give you an opportunity to have eternal life, if you accepted it, which you fortunately all did. This is not a right. It is such an exceptional mercy, that even the other Gods seem to be stunned at what she did”, the man’s voice shook, and his wife embraced him.

“The Light of God that came for us, was that part of the Lady’s soul?”, Hilde asked.

“Yes”, the man nodded solemnly.

“It was so clear and wonderful”, the girl nodded and smiled. “It was the best thing I ever felt in my entire life. But you say the light of Jesus was also there. Why didn’t I feel it? When I heard about Jesus, it was all confusing and I didn’t understand anything, and I didn’t feel his light”, she continued.

“That’s because it’s hard. To perceive the light of Christ, as they told me, you need to really understand the Bible, and understand who Christ was, and get the feeling of his holy presence, and then you latch onto his light, which the Church calls the Holy Spirit, and you need to always follow its guidance in all that you do. However, it’s not easy and not everybody succeeds. Also, Satan is working really hard to confuse people and distract them from this, so that they wouldn’t get eternal life, and would stay enslaved to him on Earth, being born again there or going to that desolate, terrible place where godless souls go when they die”, Berfrid ruffled the girl’s hair.

“I can’t imagine how wonderful it must be to be the Lady, if a small part of her soul, that she sent for us, felt so wonderful. It was God, and we accepted it instantly because it was such truth and happiness that I never thought possible”, said the boy.

“That’s why she’s a Goddess”, her mother nodded. “She is all made of God stuff, so when she took a part of her and sent it for us, that part was God, like the rest of her. It is our great fortune that Father pled for us with her and that she was so compassionate, because we were barely holding onto our last breaths as her light came, and we would have died in that terrible place, cold and hungry and alone, not knowing what happened to Father”, she shivered. “Children, we have a serious obligation now. We promised to worship the Lady forever, and it’s not merely out of gratitude. It is because she is the most wonderful person we ever saw; she is the holy sister of Christ and nobody is holier or worthier of our worship, and our spiritual path is now to become more like her and know her more, by thinking about her and praising her. There is nothing more important and valuable than that, and Lord Padmasambhava confirmed to Father that this is the way all Gods do: they became Gods by worshipping each other, and they continue to do so now. They are all family to each other, they love each other and obey each other, and we should do the same, for it would be a great sin if we forgot the Lady’s light now that we are saved by it. Instead, we should cherish this opportunity, and be like that light to each other and to other souls”, Isalde spoke seriously but choking with bliss, and her children embraced her.

“I promise to all three of you that I will love you and cherish you as I love and cherish the Lady’s holy person, as part of her lives as the three of you now, so you are now most sacred to me”, their father embraced them all. “Never forget that a part of a most holy person of God lives in you now, and as holy people you have a duty to make that light grow brighter, and never be extinguished”.

“We swear”, all three spoke in unison.

“Wait, if a part of a girl God is my soul now, does it mean that I will be a girl now?”, the boy voiced his confusion.

“No”, his father smiled. “It means you will become a man who had felt the spiritual taste of a girl God, and so when you love a woman, you will know how to guide her towards that goal, so that both of you can live in God”.

A lapse

“My Lady, can we have a word with you?”, an angel accompanied by three others addressed Lady Hypatia.

“Of course, Berfrid”, she smiled. “I am so glad we meet again, this time under better circumstances”. She looked at his family. “And these must be your wife, Isalde, and the children are Albert and Hilde?”.

They all bowed as she addressed them. “They are indeed, and thanks to you alone”, the man bowed deeply. “The teachers in the apple orchard, the blessed Padmasambhava and his holy wives, have been explaining to us and the others how the real world actually works, how the souls are created, how they grow and achieve enlightenment, and so on. Specifically, he told us what you did, because it was the first such case, how you took from your own soul and gave my wife and children immortality so that they could join me, simply because I begged for you to save them”. He looked her straight in the eyes with such depth of worship that shivers went up her head. “I offered you my soul in exchange, but you wanted nothing. Know this, however. We will forever worship you, every day of our lives, even if we get to live forever. You will forever remain our Saviour Goddess, and our souls are forever yours”, tears started welling up in his eyes, and Hypatia just hugged the man and said nothing.

“I am so proud of you”, Lord Azrael whispered in his wife’s ear.

“The feeling is very much mutual, my Lord”, she whispered back.

“When I was overwhelmed, you took control, arranged for my replacement, and brought me to the exactly right people who could actually do something in time, and only because of this immediate and perfect response did anything I wanted to do actually matter”, she kissed him. “If not for you and Lord Shiva, my tears would have amounted to nothing. Only because of your immediate reaction, and his world-tearing power, was this family saved”.

“Be it as it may, you still sacrificed a part of your own soul for them, which makes you legendary and worthy of highest praise”, he smiled.

“And instead of a scar, I got this jewel”, she pointed out.

“Proof that holy acts of sacrifice are never a loss”, he kissed her brow.

“I don’t know if you can even imagine what this means to me”, she was lost in thought. “On Earth, I always had to be in control of myself, because any lapse would be interpreted as female weakness and incompetence. But here, when I lost it, you treated it as a sign of a legitimate emergency, covered for my failings, and elevated the problem to the highest authority, and at no point did anyone think less of me for it. If anything, Lord Shiva took my tears and those poor people’s suffering so much to heart, that he seems to have proclaimed a personal vengeance against Satan. I feel something in me relaxing for the first time, as if I can allow myself to react emotionally, knowing that it’s fine, that you all have me covered. It feels wonderful”, she melted into his side.