I said that a line has been drawn at vajra, and that souls that are not made of at least that will be considered non-entities and wiped out as this world ends. I think this requires more explanations.

First of all, some souls were made of such stuff before incarnation here, but got lost and didn’t attain enough skill and purity to make a full circle and realize this in the material world. As unfortunate as that may be, the consequences of such partial incarnation are likely to be merely awakening in their full power at the other side, wondering what the fuck that was and how did they manage to get so lost and confused. Essentially, other than having that incarnation as a shameful reminder that they are not as powerful as they thought of themselves, they do not necessarily lose much. However, I don’t know the details. If they pledged something, and its return is contingent upon success in the material world, that would have been lost. I’ve seen such instances and it’s never pretty. Also, not attaining full initiation in the material world is only one of the modes of failure. One can also make spiritual choices that are harmful or binding, and that’s a mess in its own right. Basically, failure to attain initiation is a failure to choose your true self in the world, which means you are lost in the sphere of things, and this exists in a range from harmless to really bad. I won’t get too much into how bad it can get, but I think spiritual degradation can be quite serious if you “spend” your spiritual wealth on the “upkeep” of a wasteful physical existence. So, basically, if you didn’t attain initiation into vajra in this life, it’s not necessarily a terrible thing, but it’s also never great. Best scenario, you get everything back as you die, and you feel like a damn fool. Worst case scenario, you can get seriously degraded if you did really harmful things, such as spending your spiritual wealth here. I think various uninitiated or partially initiated “spiritual teachers” tend to do that, and also some especially bad kinds of sin, such as willingly serving Satan, or pledging yourself to him in some way, or opposing God, or creating a false religion that is widely harmful, are in this category. Basically, you need to really fuck up; ordinary fuckups don’t really count. There are things that can break your soul’s vajra core or piss away its “jewels” in an unsuccessful incarnation, so a mere failure to attain initiation can be the least of your problems. Anti-initiation exists, you know. Making choices that are the direct opposite of those that would attain initiation can produce fractures in your soul, with all kinds of bad outcomes. Loss of soul-mass, degradation back to the status of an astral being, even complete destruction. So, the fact that you might have had high spiritual status before this incarnation doesn’t necessarily put you in the clear. If you fucked up hard enough, the consequences will be bad and permanent.

Second, why is vajra the place where the line is drawn, and not “white light” of anahata cakra, the stuff religions keep harping about – love, compassion and so on. Mostly because that stuff is so intertwined with animal biology it’s not really spirituality, not in most cases. Sure, you can feel love, but so did Hitler, and so does Joe’s dog. Had you actually attained purity of that state, vajra initiation would have commenced, because in my experience that’s how it works; you can’t have pure emotions in the “heart spectrum” if the layers beneath it are dirty, and if you attain and sustain those pure high heart-centered emotions, essentially metta, the loving-kindness, acceptance and flow of radiant love, for long enough (days or something in that order of magnitude), you basically qualify for vajra initiation. If the initiation doesn’t take place, you’re likely deluding yourself, and your karmic purity isn’t sufficient. If it does take place, you can still fail to attain it if you make bad choices. Essentially, you can say “no”. So, basically, initiation into vajra is the first step in spiritual growth that actually amounts to something, and it’s not a mere experience, such as samadhi or darshan. I’ve seen people who had all kinds of high experiences and became even worse assholes than they were before. Experiences, as such, don’t say anything about you, and they might actually be a test to see what you’ll do, not a sign of achievement of any kind on your part. If you have an experience of God and you react to it by attaining initiation, now that’s something else, because that says something about you: that you actually accepted what you were shown and became that. Failure to become means spiritual weakness and tepidity at best, and rejection of God at worst. In any case, it’s not good.

So, initiation into vajra means that you attained purity of thoughts and emotions, and you chose to rise above the entire sphere of filth and ignorance. That’s why it’s so important. Failure to attain it means failure to rise above filth and ignorance, basically. That’s why the line is drawn there. If you haven’t attained it, it’s testimony to your failure to rise above, and reject lowly things. Why would God want to keep you forever, eh? You couldn’t choose to be pure, non-binding loving-kindness for a week and you would somehow be fit for eternity with God? I don’t think so.

So, those who were not vajra-initiates before, need to attain it, and those who were, need to choose it. Failure to do so is never a good thing, but consequences vary in the range of being taken out with the rest of the trash, being given a chance to complete initiation in the real world, and being embarrassed by your failure but otherwise getting your stuff back. That’s an oversimplification, but I think it helps get the point across.

It’s serious business, life. If you fail to take it seriously, you will face the consequences. Everything matters – the things you experience, the things you do, the ways you react, what you choose to believe, what you love and what you reject, how you do things, and why. “Everything matters” means it’s consequential, in a sense that it has consequences. Sure, things like getting vanilla ice cream instead of chocolate don’t matter, but your background of consciousness while you do it matters. Purity matters, kindness matters, love matters, detachment matters, and if you combine those things that matter into a constant state that is your choice, higher initiation will follow. Otherwise, fuck around and you will find out.