What’s my role in all this?

Ever since 1997, I felt great urgency about this; and by “this” I mean finding all viable candidates for initiation into vajra and higher levels. I did my absolute best, even to the point of doing very questionable things so that I would survive longer and thus remain capable of giving a chance to more souls. I wrote articles and books, argued with people who very diligently and aggressively opposed my efforts, faced opposition and betrayal from students who turned mad, evil or unwilling to make progress. Within a few years, it was over. The enemies won, and I could no longer do anything constructive in that respect.

The urgency I felt in the beginning, and tried to convey to students, turned out to be very real. The window closed. I think it opened again in 2010 or so, when Sanat Kumar slipped on tea and was out of the picture. It was then that I wrote the new books on theory, finally explaining how my original techniques actually work and what they do. I think higher initiation again became possible since then, but honestly… my enemies were more vigilant and fanatical than my supporters, I was not taken seriously, and my reach was minimal. Also, somewhere around 2006, with the ascent of smartphones and social media, people stopped caring about spirituality altogether and this is where the horizon of opportunity ended.

So, it’s not that I didn’t try to save as many souls as possible with techniques and approach that was from the very beginning designed exactly for this – basically, attain darshan of the Lord in order to align yourself vertically, awaken Kundalini, learn the techniques; up-stream kriya, resonance and the inner space, then the method of grounding into elements, with the goal of attaining initiation into vajra.

Very few actually did it, even among those who practiced the method. It works, but I seem to have been the only one who was actually motivated. The others thought they had plenty of time, explored worldly bullshit, lost focus, found other things they preferred doing.

Almost no new people with genuine interest appeared. Nobody cared.

Now, I sense that some people blame me for what’s about to happen, as if I’m the one who is going to wipe them out. No motherfuckers, I was the one trying to save you for the last 3 decades, while you made fun of me. So I failed. Congratulations, you really messed up my evil plans.