I ended up modifying my smtp server so that gmail would no longer bounce messages; it was easier than I thought, some simple things on the linux side and mostly DNS work. SPF, DKIM and DMARC. Sounds obscure, but very easy to do if you have a good tutorial and know how to follow the instructions. Fortunately, I kept my Linux skills sharp enough for this kind of stuff.
So, I can now again use my own mail server instead of Google’s, until someone in America again decides to adopt, modify and extinguish some existing and perfectly good open protocol. To defend the world against all kinds of evils, of course, because they’re the good guys. That’s sarcasm, BTW.
I used to be annoyed about the part of the NDE experiences where people come before the Judge and he shows them the retrospective of their life. At that time, I was going through my memories with a metaphoric magnifying glass, finding everything messed up in order to fix it, and it seemed to me that my life is basically all about fixing traumatic shit – traumatic either because it was something I did wrong, or because I was in a desperate situation. In any case, it looked like there’s almost nothing good there, and yet it’s something that’s been put on my plate and now I have to deal with it. If, after all that, someone’s first idea is to make me look into all that again, after it’s all over, I thought I’d be so annoyed I’d chase that person around Heaven with a stick.
And yet, I recently had a situation where exactly that happened; someone showed me where to look, again, with a different perspective, and my whole understanding of my childhood had changed. Not because I missed something before; I was very thorough. I did, however, inspect only myself; my role, my condition, my actions, and apparently that was not enough, because other people’s roles and actions in all of that fundamentally change the whole picture.
It’s not that my approach was wrong. It was incomplete, but not wrong. It’s like handling a medical emergency without handling the war that caused it. Necessary, and good, but doesn’t actually deal with the wider picture.
I did try to understand what’s the point. It is now pretty obvious what happened – Satan seems to have deceived me and modified my life in order to harm me in a very specific way. Why is a different question.
It certainly had consequences, and if I assume that those consequences are what he aimed for, apparently he harmed me in ways that would distort my own perception of myself and make it impossible, or at least incredibly hard, to reclaim myself here, in this body. The goal seems to be to make it impossible for me to coalesce my physical experience and person with my true, original being, because he blew so much dust in my face, I was supposed to spend the rest of this life navel gazing somewhere – trying to repent for and correct my supposed sins, which turned out to be forced errors or even someone else’s faults entirely. Basically, someone else showered me with shit and then tried to convince me it’s obviously my problem – after all, I do stink. Wouldn’t be right to run away from facts, right? Fortunately, God knows better what the facts actually are. Convincing me of them, however, seems to be an ongoing effort, but I seem to be making progress now. I would expect it’s related to the karmic processing, because it’s making me stronger. Me, as a physical being with layers of spiritual energetics of a very high order, as opposed to me as a being that actually incarnates through this.
How does that even work? I mean, I get the general idea. You attain initiation here in the physical, and this creates an energetic layer that makes it possible for you to live a deeper form of spiritual reality, and in my case incarnate more of my true being. It’s a partial incarnation until you get those energy bodies high enough and solid enough that there’s basically no difference between that and the incarnating entity. But that’s not actually something that even happens, historically. Not in this order of magnitude. I feel there’s something of unique importance going on, and I can’t figure it out yet. It has the “on Earth, as in Heaven” quality to it. For the first time, ever.
Not there yet; not quite. But I’m working on it. Apparently, I need to transform all this karmic mass in order to get there. The quantities are enormous, and I wonder what it even is, because it’s not like there are many things this big anywhere.
It appears that a spiritual being called the Devil conceived of and succeeded in creating a world in which he intensified conditions in such a way that the beings he allowed to enter it would—because of circumstances we have now come to understand through our own painful experience—turn to him, thank him, worship him, and proclaim him to be God as though this were the most natural and inevitable consequence. In this way, he appropriated the “credit” for himself and convinced himself of the “glory” that beings directed toward him. He probably imagined that he would grow and become stronger, acquiring all the legitimacy entrusted to him by other beings. And then what?
He probably intended to use that accumulated legacy to confront the beings outside this world whom he knew as Gods and found irritating.
After a certain amount of time, however, the process of karmic repayment began to unfold in accordance with a higher law woven into the very substrate of existence.
The Devil had to keep patching over all the pressure that continually arose before him from the “substrate.” He had to maintain the structure he had built, preserve its balance in relation to the higher reality, and constantly neutralize that pressure. And what better way could he do this than by seducing the beings who had entered this world into investing themselves in it and pledging themselves to it? He relied on a form of mathematics that he concealed from the “human beings” he was manipulating.
He would deceive and enchant an individual being, then use that being’s testimony as a stake and a form of collateral attesting to the validity of his construct—the material world.
Of course, he could not tolerate anyone setting in motion a course of development that replicated the way beings had evolved outside this world. He would punish such individuals—Jesus, for example.
Okay, it appears that there are two tasks. One is to extract the energy that deceased beings invested in this world and that has remained embedded in it as an attractor. The other is to acquaint the beings who are still alive here with the true state of affairs, so that they may then voluntarily cease placing their trust in the deceiver—the Devil.
It may be as described above, or it may be somewhat different. What matters, however, is that this abuse and distortion are coming to an end.
There is another interesting question concerning material beings and the moment when they realize that the Devil is consciously and selfishly degrading them through exploitation for the sake of his own plans.
So, all right—you reject the Devil. But then you must decide: how exactly are you going to reorganize yourself ethically? It is true that this world clearly warns you through its scripts and embeds behavioral patterns into its mechanisms of survival—it forces you to “survive” at the level of the Devil’s ethics.
Yet another truth maintains that human beings possess a “conscience” within their spiritual being—a higher instinct that establishes the distinction between good and evil. It is a primordial spark because of which anything exists at all. Whoever tramples upon their conscience a sufficient number of times has, in fact, committed a sin. If they do so repeatedly, they consequently begin to reject responsibility for their actions and construct an ethics different from the one that had originally made their very existence possible. Admittedly, all of this resembles the woke rationalizations present in today’s world—an ethics improvised along the way according to immediate needs, ultimately ending in degradation and disappearance.
So, an individual rejects the Devil’s ethics in which they were conditioned and trained in this world. How, then, are they to determine what Divine ethics are? Since they are on an evolutionary path—and they are—they need a point of orientation that has already advanced in the direction of God. They need a reliable signpost.
If the Devil has undertaken every necessary measure in this world to eliminate and distort the signposts leading toward God, then the problem must be resolved from the perspective of an individual who is still evolving. The Devil has not permitted any contemplation of God in this world outside a framework that places him—the Devil—at the center of the concept.
Thus, we have an individual who, for one reason or another, has failed in this world to contemplate and comprehend the meaning of the concept of God. Once such a person rejects the Devil’s ethics, how are they suddenly supposed to “see” God’s ethics? It does not happen merely by snapping one’s fingers and exclaiming, “Aha!” This is called evolution—or a process. It is not the case that everything, or just anything, produces good results.
In relation to whatever is presented before them, people will demonstrate either good or bad taste, and they will make choices accordingly. If they are more intelligent, they will seek out sources and examples of goodness and gradually develop a taste for them. This is the purpose served by high-quality stories describing how Divine entities act in particular situations. Such stories function as signposts for the cultivation of discernment and taste, and may later make initiation possible, provided that an individual being draws sufficiently close to the new structure and order.
Does your full initiation here, the incarnation of your entire Being, have anything to do with the end of this world?
Probably, but I honestly don't know how it all relates. It didn't click yet.
I cannot remember the exact year, and it is not essential anyway, but sometime around the mid-1990s I was already practising an exercise involving the directing of energy and the opening of energy centres, known as the Taoist Microcosmic Orbit. In its original form, it was practised while sitting on a chair indoors.
The method was highly effective, and I could open all the chakras without difficulty, connect them into an orbit, move through that orbit several times, and sink into a state of profound tranquillity.
I would also often go to the Drava forest beside the river. The forest was covered with low-growing plants, tall shrubs, elder trees, and trees reaching thirty metres in height, all intertwined and permeating one another.
My girlfriend at the time was considerably older than I was and was obviously being pursued by some labyrinths of her own from which she did not know how to escape. Over time, a certain situation became deeply frustrating to me, and I found myself completely immersed in mental turbulence for which there seemed to be no rational solution. Because of the intense inner unrest, I decided to enter the forest where there was no path at all—a completely overgrown forest.
My mind was feverishly circling around that unrest as I walked through the forest in that state. Then, somewhere between my twentieth and twenty-first step, something passed completely through me, and I suddenly found myself in a state of total mental peace—the complete opposite of what I had been experiencing a moment earlier.
I said to myself, “No way.”
I stopped in the middle of a step and thought: if I now take one step backwards, I should return to my previous state of unrest, should I not?
I literally did exactly that. Yet I did not return to the unrest. I remained completely peaceful and clear-minded.
I said, “All right, let us practise the Microcosmic Orbit here in the forest.”
Over the following days, I went deep into that dense forest to an enormous tree, beside which ten-metre-tall elder trees were growing, surrounded by abundant three-metre-high shrubbery filled with large, velvety, silky-green leaves.
The Microcosmic Orbit exercise works by touching each chakra with one’s awareness, opening it, and then moving on to the next one. By then, I had already mastered this quite well, and the entire system became open and passable practically instantly.
This is not imagination. The centres are literally felt, and the accompanying psychoenergetic state changes by itself, literally within seconds.
Because opening the energy centres and beginning to move through the orbit is accompanied by a very noticeable psychophysical reaction, I had the idea of carrying out the exercise while connecting with the energetic presence of the enormous tree, which was surrounded by other enormous trees, all of them immersed in the abundant surrounding vegetation.
The entire experience rose to a noticeably higher level. Soon afterwards, intuitively and because of the heightened sensitivity I had acquired, I also added a new practical exercise connected with the meridians running through the body.
What I soon realised through this newly combined practice was that human beings, within family relationships, do not function in a state of genuine openness, and that there is no possibility for relationships arising from such a condition to have a good outcome. Everyone is bound to end up in serious trouble sooner or later.
I interpret the event that occurred at approximately : ))) the twentieth step as Darshan (of course, at the time I did not know that term or concept), but someone must have caused the change—someone must have intervened., performed as though someone had touched the still surface of water with an extremely precise touch. Something appeared that had not previously been there and diverted the former course of my psychophysical state, although the event itself had no apparent explanation.
The literal contact lasted only a fraction of a second, yet it left a psychophysically measurable trace that remained for several hours.
That video by Charles Stanley reminded me of that distant realisation: according to their learned default mode, beings enter into and maintain superficial relationships that ultimately lead to breakdowns.
I consider it both useful and possible that, by following Stanley’s guidance, certain energy centres—or psychoenergetic complexes—can be meaningfully and beneficially stabilised, thereby removing at least part of the chaos present within families.
In situations where yogis are present, Satan is involved, and both sides are aware of each other’s presence and actions, the situation described above must obviously have been part of a training process.
The problem people face is that unless they first stabilize their chaotic and traumatized energetic and psychophysical state, their choices and actions will become increasingly poor—in accordance with the ecosystem of the virtual world imposed upon them—and will continue to repeat in a spiral leading to ever greater confusion. That is precisely what Satan needs; in such an ecosystem, he can manipulate people with ease.
And he feeds his victims with mirages until their death, all the while, of course, keeping them in the dark about the fact that they are making moves in accordance with this world.