Self medication

I’ve been reading more of those “space operas” of American origin, because I had an impression that something important can be divined from it, and I was right; essentially, people write those stories as some kind of wish fulfilment or projection, trying to live out in fantasy what they can’t get in life. Sure, lots of that stuff looks as it was written by some AI, because my head would start hurting trying to process the illogical jumps between narratives and missing parts of the plot. However, the AI would work within the given parameters, and combine existing material, so my initial assumption applies.

The plot is always about a human male and an alien female. This, of course, translates as American male and non-American female. The man is always a competent, no-nonsense person, disillusioned by the world where the “higher-ups” work with immoral corporations to commit genocide and similar war crimes for profit, while ordinary people are sold the story about duty and country/species in order to keep them obedient and expendable. So, he has military background, active or former, and is currently either trying to have a peaceful solitary life in some outback, or is a smuggler, mercenary or a private security contractor; things you would expect from former military. Sometimes he’s an engineer within the military framework, or a combat medic.

At some point he encounters an alien woman in trouble. She is either a designated enemy, or an ally, but mostly treated with suspicion or derision by humans. The trouble varies; sometime she’s a member of allied forces who survived a nasty combat mission with damage to her enhanced armour, which needs delicate skill to repair because it’s either a precious heritage item or it’s bonded to her mind with complex biotechnology. Sometimes she’s a gravely injured soldier left to die by others on the battlefield. Sometimes she’s a refugee escaping some Avatar-like scenario where some corporation strip mined and poisoned her world and most natives died. Sometimes she’s a warrior princess of a hostile warrior-culture that has him fight in an arena as a gladiator, and she’s the last challenge, as the undefeated champion.

At first, he just goes about his business as usual, but soon something changes; he thinks about following procedure and leaving the paralysed alien woman half buried in rubble to die, because that’s the procedure. However, then something clicks and he says “no, not again”, thinking about all the cases where he followed orders against his conscience and had to either kill innocents or watch them die while doing nothing, and he sees this as an opportunity to finally do the right thing, and then proceeds to carry the wounded woman across the battlefield to safety, under enemy fire, periodically stopping to treat her injuries or give her pain medications, all the while talking to her to keep her conscious. As they talk, the woman turns out to be smart, mentally strong, dedicated and honourable; basically, a worthy person he develops actual feelings for, and she’s sincerely grateful to him for saving her life and taking care of her. Through their banter, they develop real feelings for each other.

Or it’s an arrogant alien warrior princess who fights him in a duel, which he somehow manages to win and ends up married to her due to some tradition. She initially hates the whole situation and feels humiliated, but as time goes on she understands that he’s actually a honourable and highly competent individual, and as they are forced to work together solving some deadly problem, they develop real feelings for each other.

The next phase is either an alien healing capsule that heals the wounded woman by transferring something from the man to her, which ends with them being mentally bonded/imprinted, Avatar way. Or it’s some ritual, or something. In any case, those two people who were already properly bonded get connected telepathically into a larger whole. One would expect this to be an uncommon plot twist, but it’s not – human man and alien woman being mentally connected seems to be a major trope in those stories.

However, while I was browsing through those stories on YouTube, I was offered both stories based on real life, as well as copy-paste material from Reddit where people report actual stuff, and that stuff is universally terrible, in a sense that it showcases the depth of human capacity for depravity, sin and betrayal. People treating family members with contempt and neglect, wives mocking husbands publicly, causing divorce. Wives whoring around while their husbands are in the military in mortal danger. Interestingly, it’s mostly women acting like spoiled brats on an ego trip, acting in profoundly disrespectful and dishonourable ways, and causing destruction of the family. Also, women complaining that men stopped dating them, stopped talking to them, stopped giving them attention, ignoring them while they are in danger, and stories where some piece of human trash rapes a woman in public transportation while nobody lifts a finger to help her.

And then it becomes obvious why men write escapist stories about an American man and a non-American woman, both from different cultures, but both honourable, smart, attentive, respectful and grateful, and eventually developing a profound spiritual connection with their minds and emotions intertwined completely in a larger whole.

Basically, people in the West are treating others like a commodity or a utility, they lack discipline, respect, honour and loyalty, and they fail to establish a true and permanent spiritual connection, women are spoiled brats who act like absolute garbage, and men feel betrayed, unseen, disrespected and alone.

This is more than just a series of fantasy tropes, it’s an indicator of a profound spiritual crisis of the whole Western society, and especially America. In one case, I’ve seen a woman ask why men are not dating women, instead staying at home playing video games. A man answered: it’s because video games got better, and women got worse.

This is not going to end well, because I don’t see how such profoundly destructive trends can be reversed, since everybody keeps defending the causes as if they are the cornerstone of everything that’s good about this civilisation. Not only is this going to end up getting the civilisation destroyed and getting everybody killed, it’s going to produce lots of souls with profoundly inverted system of values that will be a problem to remedy in the afterlife. In this sense, those silly space romances I’ve been reading are not only a good indicator of the profound societal issues, but also a good attempt of self-medication by people who were hurt by this liberal dystopia.

Utrawide, but not ultraweird

I have the first batch of pictures made with the FE 14mm f/1.8 GM (and Biljana has a series with the RF 16mm f/2.8).

14mm G master is wider than the more conventional 16mm, but not so much that the lens would require adaptations to the shooting style; basically, it’s an ultrawide, and you use it as such. Biljana’s 16mm Canon focuses closer, which is very useful for certain kinds of near/far compositions, but the actually important difference is the aperture. f/1.8 really allows you to “see in the dark”, and especially combined with the sensor stabilisation in the A7RV it allows you to get sharp pictures of stars at 1/3s hand-held. Biljana doesn’t have sensor stabilisation in the Canon RP body and the RF 16mm f/2.8 doesn’t have optical stabilisation, which forced her to try insane things like 1s exposures hand-held, which of course can’t be done. However, while there was still a reasonable amount of light available, it all worked fine, and well into the deep blue hour, but not past the point where we could no longer see where we were going without a flashlight. All in all, the 16mm is a very practical lens that allows you to get f/2.8 without paying through the nose for a 16-35mm f/2.8 zoom, or having to carry it uphill for hours. I couldn’t actually evaluate sharpness of either lens because we used them for real life photography as this type of lens is supposed to be used, not taking pictures of a flat surface and then pixel-peeping the edges. The truth is, if you’re using a wide angle properly, you are perceiving flare, sun stars, contrast, colours and sharpness around the point of focus much more than anything else, and when I look at the actual pictures, both lenses did a nice job. The 14mm f/1.8 just has 1.3 stops of light advantage in the dark, which actually matters a lot if you want to hand-hold shots with stars visible in the night sky. Both lenses are very resistant to flare with sun in the frame, the contrast and colours are excellent, and the files would print big. You do, however, get what you pay for with the G master lens, which is optically better than any ultrawide has a right to be, and that’s wide open at f/1.8. Considering how shitty 50mm f/1.8 double Gauss designs are wide open, that’s actually mind-bogglingly insane, considering how hard it is to design a decent ultrawide lens. This one is not decent; it’s basically a perfect lens, to the point where I just use it as I would any other fast prime, without thinking that this shit should be impossible for an ultrawide, and in fact was ten years ago. The Zuiko Digital 7-14mm f/4, for instance, had severe flare with sun in the frame, and the total absence thereof on the G master is the most shocking aspect of its design that I noticed. If I’m trying to look for things that could be improved… there’s basically nothing. It’s reasonably small and light for what it is (the Zuiko 7-14mm f/4 zoom is much bigger and heavier, and that’s for 4/3, not 35mm), it’s reasonably priced for a top-tier lens, it’s built well and it’s optically so good it feels surreal, but in a good way, because it just works and doesn’t let you know there’s anything weird about that.

The 16mm f/2.8 Canon is impressive in its own way. It’s so small it almost falls into the category of pancake lenses; definitely pocketable, and on a general image quality scale (what you see looking at the picture as a whole, rather than magnified details) it’s excellent. The most important aspect of this is resistance to flare with sun in the frame, contrast and colours, which are all excellent. If the G master shocks you with its optical performance, this one shocks you with the fact that something this small, light and inexpensive works this well at all, in lighting conditions that are not completely unreasonable. Basically, while Biljana still had enough light to work with, she was producing pictures that are a very close match to mine, but when she ran out of light and tried to hand-hold 1/3s shots, there was a sudden drop where the shots were no longer usable due to motion blur, while I kept cranking out completely unreasonable stuff.

When I would have to hand out recommendations, I’d say both lenses are excellent for what they are, and in both cases you get good value for the money. The Canon RF is small, light, cheap and capable of cranking out great images. The G master is absolute insanity, a 14mm lens that makes a typical 50mm f/1.8 look like a piece of crap optically, is as sharp as a macro lens, produces no flare or contrast reduction with sun in the frame and lets you take pictures of constellations handheld.

Ursa Maior supra crucem

But I would say that the Canon RF works better in daylight or at least reasonable amounts of light, for anything from interiors, urban photography to landscapes, and the G master is an optically ideal lens without any real limitations, unless you want to use filters, which can’t be done due to a bulbous front element. The actual question is whether you want to take pictures that really take advantage of such a lens, and for most people the answer will probably be “no”, and I would recommend something like a 16-35mm f/4 zoom, which can give you the ultrawide angle but with the flexibility to use something more reasonable for most shots. There’s also a skill issue with the ultrawides; you really need to know how to work such a lens and compose things in ways that will take advantage of it, instead of getting empty compositions that look like shit. So, I would definitely recommend your first ultrawide to be a 16-35mm f/4 zoom, because those are cheap, practical and reasonably light, giving you the option but without forcing it upon you immediately. However, if you find out that such an ultrawide zoom is what you use most of the time, and mostly at the wider end, then an ultrawide prime might be a thing for you. Both Biljana and I actually prefer 35mm fast primes for most things, and we find their perspective more natural, so ultrawides won’t be the first tool we reach for, but they are very nice to have when we need them.

Zombie apocalypse

August on Hvar, a notable tourist location. You can imagine. Biljana and I went to the store to get fish for lunch, that ended up with her going to the store and me driving in circles on the parking lot, waiting not for a free spot, because that’s not happening, but for her to come back so we can get the fuck out.

On the good note, the FE 14mm f/1.8 GM arrived:

That’s the first time I have a combination of ultrawide angle and wide aperture. Usually, I’ve been using wide lenses stopped down, so this is a new thing for me. There’s a lot of haze in the air so I’m not sure about photographic opportunity, but haze can create very nice orange and purple hues in the sunset, so let’s see.

Pagrus pagrus; A7RV, 14mm f/1.8