I mentioned only three major categories of souls – astral gas, vajra crystal and person of God – but this of course creates multiple valid questions. For instance, I mentioned crystalline souls with fractures, inclusions and all kinds of flaws, and I mentioned souls that have “jewels”, crystalline entities that belong to them while the rest of their soul is still of a lesser order – that apparently happens when someone accomplishes something great, that is above their normal level of achievement, so they are part crystal, part “gas”. Also, soul crystals exist in multiple orders of magnitude of energy, and in various sizes, so growth is possible in both quantity and quality. Typically, a blue vajra crystal would have to grow in size, and then some parts of the soul would obtain higher quality, for instance black or white substance which I used to refer to as “atmic level”, but I’m not sure this nomenclature is valid; I now call the black type shivaratri, and the white type, well, I don’t have a name for it but since almost nobody has any experience with it, that’s not really a problem. 🙂 Eventually, the large crystal of blue vajra would be compressed into a small one of black or white shivaratri, depending on your soul’s gender. Then there would be growth in size on that level, and what happens next is a secret, which I won’t reveal at this point in time.

But let us return to the things that actually matter to people reading this. Obviously, “organic” karmic aggregation through various lives and experiences produces “messy” outcomes; that’s actually the point, because otherwise God could just rubber-stamp perfect souls and be done with it. This way, we can get unexpected results, beings who grew in unexpected ways, which for the most part produces just lots of really fucked up souls of low quality that aren’t going anywhere and are evolutionary dead ends, which is then solved by pralaya, a periodic reset where such karmic abominations are wiped out, their constituent particles are joined with the successful souls that are willing to participate in the karmic cleanup (a very painful and nasty thing to endure, mind you, beside being quite demanding), and that’s that.

However, this messiness can extend to a higher soul-type, and so you get crystals that grew with inclusions and fractures, rather than a “clean” initiation into vajra, where one would attain purity, presence and independence of all four elements. What do those inclusions and fractures mean? Let’s say one’s spiritual evolution was from a path of a sannyasi, a reclusive monk meditating in his cave. Let’s say he attained abilities and states of consciousness of a pretty high and uncommon kind, but also has all kinds of stupid ideas about the “world”, about people living in it, about women, about people outside his caste and nation and so on.

In order to get rid of those inclusions, one would have to be born in a situation where he would experience things from a completely different perspective, and then either learn that he was wrong, or stubbornly persist in his inherited ways and really badly fuck up, in ways he can’t ignore, and come to the proper understanding in a more painful way. It’s a very nasty process and some would avoid it at all cost, which makes problems persist, or they would surrender the entire problem to God, which would make it God’s problem to solve.

In any case, such impurities are a very persistent mess, particularly because such highly evolved souls are stubborn in their ways and tend to think that their problems are not problems at all, but part of what makes them special and better than others. For instance, accepting any “spiritual person” as your superior at face value can seem like virtue of humility to people who went through a specific school of spirituality in past lives, but it makes them extremely vulnerable to all kinds of charlatans and beginners wearing orange robes, which causes all kinds of trouble. An opposite problematic issue would be unwillingness to listen to anyone because you assume you know better and everybody else is an idiot, because that’s what your past experiences had taught you.

Those are merely the simplest of examples, because when I say that organic evolution is messy, I’m not kidding. People who had all kinds of past experiences can have all kinds of trauma, misapprehensions and nonsense intermixed with deep understanding and ability, and sometimes you can have really tragic cases of souls that are on one hand very sophisticated and evolved, and on the other hand too fucked up to exist or function properly, for instance because Sanat Kumar intentionally tortured and broke them here; all those slaves who died in mines, construction sites, whore houses and fields of history, occasionally end up half-enlightened, having profound spiritual experiences and understandings that crystallise their soul, but on the other hand they have parts terribly deformed from multiple incarnations of serial rape and slavery in whore houses of ancient Rome or Middle East, or something equally nasty, and their spiritual structure is so fucked up and fragile, that its entire point seems to be about fear, defence of unhealed wounds, spiritual scar tissue and deformed understanding and growth into an abomination that would continue creating problems even past this world, because they aren’t letting go of their problems, or even understanding them as problems; they usually think their problems are solutions.

If this is insufficiently clear, try convincing a lesbian who had multiple past lives of being serially raped and whipped by men in some basement that being a defensive, aggressive man hating bitch is a problem rather than a solution, and you’ll get what I’m trying to say. And let’s say you have such a person that’s made of a combination of such scar tissue and fucked up mess, and blue or deep violet vajra. Good luck trying to explain anything to such a person; they evolved by shielding themselves completely from anything that even remotely smells of irritating their sensitive spots, and by concentrating on their strong spots as if they were a solution and not a completely parallel thing. As I said, you can’t heal someone’s wound if they think it’s not a wound but a shield that protects them. Such a soul exists in multiple realities – their wounds tie them to this world, while their strong points tie them to heaven, and if they resist solving their problems, I guess they get crushed in pralaya, and if something remains, it’s the part that was actually solid, but the mass of the resulting entity is always diminished compared to what it would have been had they actually got their shit together, saw the problem as a problem and solved it instead of nurturing it.

It’s not just the messiness of evolution that causes this type of issues; particularly, it’s evolution here, in this world, where serious delusions and misapprehensions can be intermixed with rapid growth through virtuous choices and good understanding, that seems to produce the worst of the mess. The solution is obvious – you need to “break”, understand that what you thought was your strength is just shit, that you got things wrong, and then you learn and actually grow in understanding, and then the soul crystal can actually heal. Sometimes, you need to understand that some things were just unfixable and wrong and they need to be written off, the way cancer needs to be removed in surgery, and the loss of mass, well, it’s not like it’s been doing anything useful where it was, really. You lose soul-mass, but you lose the part that was making you insane and leading you to doom, so that hardly counts as a loss anyway.

So, if evolution here potentially creates karmic abominations, what does evolution in the real world produce? Well, for the most part it produces beautiful and uniform growth, but also the complete inability to understand evil, because they were not properly exposed to it, and they also seem unable to understand the concept of dirty methods producing good results. They seem to have limited ability for unconventional problem-solving, or pattern recognition, and their ability to conceptualise “good” is rather simplistic. So, on the plus side, this world does something right. On the minus side, when the results are bad, they are incredibly bad; and, unfortunately, they typically are bad.