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Badge of dishonour

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There’s a question I expected to be asked, but for some reason never was.

If there’s a lower limit placed on soul quality/evolutionary level, and this level is blue vajra, and everybody below that level will be judged as not having reached sufficient spiritual level for continued existence on the next level, and the support system that maintains souls of inferior quality is to be discontinued, what does that mean for souls that have been made of higher substances – blue vajra and higher – prior to this physical incarnation, but failed to attain initiation in this incarnation?

You see, that exists, and I call those being “partial incarnations”, or, in case of beings that incarnate from a very high level, “partial avatars”. This is my name for a being who failed to close the loop by attaining initiation into levels of reality that were available to them prior to this incarnation. An example of this would be someone whose spiritual body is made of mostly blue vajra, but in this incarnation fails to operate on anything higher than the heart-centered emotional level. So, what happens if such a soul fails to, basically, remember and choose its own nature, and instead gets stuck in some worldly mess, or, in the worst case, actively makes choices that oppose those of their soul?

I don’t know why nobody asked me that, because it’s a pretty obvious question, if you have any experience with those things. The answer is not straightforward. In some cases, if one really fucks up, the results can be really bad for them; and by fucking up I mean giving Satan control of their spiritual resources. They will lose control of those, most likely forever, and those resources will be corrupted by Satan, and in addition to losing them, they will suffer karmic consequences for their corruption and, partially, for all the evil that is to be wrought using them.

If all one does is get lost here, do stupid things, and never attain initiation, I think they get to wear this incarnation as a badge of demerit of a sort, forever. I guess if all kinds of spiritual jewels exist as an equivalent of badges of honour, merit or some kind of success, equivalent to a scientific degree or a military rank, there also exist the negative equivalents – stains of shame and demerit, that show that you were weak, deluded, mistaken and did foolish or even evil things in this world, not only failing to achieve success and glory, but outright failing, by achieving weakness, stupidity and delusion. Imagine a “medal” of cowardice, stupidity and demerit, and having to wear it forever. Yeah, that’s the most likely fate of those who incarnated here to show the rest of us how it’s done when a big shot shows up, and then they get completely lost and not only fail to achieve anything of value, but achieve demerits that embarrass their soul for all eternity and can never be hidden.

Sure, it’s a bit too late to think about those things now, but those concerned are of the kind who would never have listened to me anyway.

So, loss of spiritual assets and earning a badge of dishonour are among the possible consequences of failure to attain initiation to your actual spiritual level. However, they are not the worst things that can happen. In absolutely worst scenarios, one can become completely lost and disintegrate, losing most if not all of their spiritual mass. I know people who are good candidates for this fate, due to their terrible choices that turned them into outright demons, but the less is said about them, the better. Let’s just say that the angels of death will hold their nose while throwing them to hell. As Jesus said, for some people it would have been better were they not born at all.

Linux again

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I recently did some experiments with “old” hardware – a Skylake i5-6500T mini pc running Debian 12 with KDE Plasma, configured so that I can use it either as a stand-in replacement for my home server, or a fully set up Linux desktop for myself in case I need it for something; I don’t know, if both Microsoft and Apple make their operating systems non-functional at the same time for some reason. I intentionally left the machine with 8GB RAM just to see if it’s enough, and it seems to be more than enough for the server, where it uses up 1.4GB, and barely sufficient for desktop, where it uses up almost all the RAM when I run all the things that I normally do. It’s all quite snappy, but I did notice one thing; when I play videos on YouTube on full screen, or even when I’m using one of the high-bandwidth modes such as 1080p@60, it frame drops like crazy and is as smooth as a country road in Siberia during the melt season. My first guess was that the Skylake iGPU doesn’t support the modern codecs used by YouTube for those high bandwidth modes, but then I thought more about it and decided it might be a Linux issue. I didn’t feel like installing Windows on that machine just to test my hypothesis, so I took out the second device I recently got on ebay, the Thinkpad T14 with i5-10310U, a Comet Lake CPU with support for all the modern codecs. Played that same 4k video test on Win11, with perfect results, zero frame drops. Then I rebooted into Ubuntu 24.04, same test, and it frame drops almost the same as the Skylake machine.

I did all the recommended stuff on Linux; tried different browsers, tried to toggle GPU acceleration on and off, and the only thing I managed to do is make it behave worse, not better.

Switch to Linux they say, you’ll solve all your Microsoft problems they say. Well it’s true, you’ll solve your Microsoft problems, and instead of Microsoft you’ll have problems caused by thousands of pimply masturbators with attitude issues who can’t agree on the colour of shit, which is why there are hundreds of Linux distros and they all have the same issues, because polishing the GPU drivers and the window manager is hard. But the important thing is that the Linux community is getting rid of “nazis” who think there are only two genders, and at the same time they get rid of Russian developers because “stand with Ukraine”.

Yeah. The frustrating thing about Linux is that so many things work well, and then you run into something important like this. Maybe Huawei will rework Linux into something that actually works well, and give it wider hardware support and localisation, doing for Linux desktop what Android did for mobile. Maybe. However then America is going to block it because they won’t be able to install their spyware.

Government of Heaven

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I’m thinking about the systems of government that have been tried in this world, and trying to conceptualise the system of government that exists in the real world, the one created by God, that’s usually called heaven or something similar in a religious context.

So, is heaven a democracy, a monarchy, a republic, or what?

I was thinking about that, and concluded that the best way to put it is this. Imagine the entire world as a corporation. Everybody in it has a job, a purpose. Also, everybody is a shareholder, with a single kalapa being one share, and, basically, the more kalapas in your spiritual body, the more influence you have over the company – in fact, over the created world – because it means that you are more “of God” than other beings, because each kalapa is the most fundamental manifestation of God’s spirit in the relative. It’s not a linear thing, because kalapas aggregate into larger structures, which collapse into structures of greater density but lower volume when they reach complete purity, and then those larger structures grow in size and collapse into structures of even greater density, and so on. So, basically, the company is run by a board of directors, who run different “departments” and represent different aspects of reality and spiritual evolution, and they both rule and represent because they are, by the virtue of their spiritual magnitude, the greatest manifestations of the transcendental God in the relative, and as such they contain the best available perspective on what is important, what is real, good, and leads to greater knowledge and manifestation of God. So, those big shareholders speak for a huge number of “shares”, and the concept of “one person, one vote” doesn’t really exist. The Christians would say that the Heaven is ruled by God, and great saints and angels, due to their better and deeper communion with God, have greater responsibility and power, because the power and authority of God works through them. I could actually be more precise in my description, but I will intentionally leave it vague so that some surprises remain for those who get to witness it in person. 🙂

Social thermodynamics

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People periodically ask me for a cause of all kinds of terrible things that are taking place on an almost daily basis in the recent years – whether it’s something some global script designed by Satan is targeting them with specifically, or something of a more broad spectrum is at play.

This is my recent answer:

Honestly, on some deeper level, this no longer feels as if anyone is “doing” anything, it looks like some kind of a thermodynamic event, for instance ocean cooling down by evaporating into the atmosphere and making a hurricane.

Basically, the same as the ocean producing a hurricane merely as a consequence of its inability to hold on to the level of energy it has, the global astral field can’t hold on to the level of energy it had while Sanat Kumar was managing the system, and we are facing a spiritual equivalent of a major temperature drop.

Also, I need to add this, because people who aren’t trained physicists tend to have wild misunderstanding of those things.

An energy drop sounds like a low-energy event, but in fact it’s a high-energy event. When an atom drops in energy, it emits a photon, basically produces radiation when you look at it from the outside, and to you it appears like a high-energy event. Ocean dropping in temperature is a hurricane, a very violently high-energy event. Gas that drops in temperature/pressure emits large amounts of heat. Battery going from high energy state to a low energy state is a very energetic event.

Likewise, the global system cooldown, its descent into a lower-energy state, appears extremely violent and energetic – hysteria, violence, wars, genocide and so on. An energy drop usually means a very big “boom”.

I used to think about the causes of the terrible self-destructive world wars, especially the first one, which looked as if the whole civilisation just threw itself into the meat grinder. One explanation was that the balance of power within the civilisation changed from feudalism to capitalism, while political power remained very much feudal, and the whole war thing looks like a social thermodynamic event that destroyed this obsolete system and brought the formal power structures more in line with the actual ones. Also, the whole concept of politics, economy, war, religion and purpose had to be reshuffled to match the industrial, modernist era. The second world war looks pretty much like a continuation of the first one, and ended with the British Empire destroyed and America and Russia assuming the position of first-tier powers. Then those first-tier powers had a battle for primacy, and that one is still ongoing, where the apparent fall and dissolution of the Soviet Union represents merely one phase, and now Russia under Putin is back, and America and the entire West are having what looks very much like the late-Soviet civilisational crisis. The way things look now, USA didn’t really win the cold war; its collapse just lagged somewhat behind that of the Soviet Union.

At the moment, America looks like the last big remainder of the satanic experiment of some kind, of a country without God where people join together in democracy and take charge of their own destiny – essentially, modernism that started with the French revolution. This same experiment had many branches – European secularism, American free market capitalism and a republican constitution, Soviet Union, and the Third Reich. Third Reich is gone, Soviet Union is gone and Russia is trying to find its reason for existence which currently looks like some mixture of tradition and religion, Europe is a decadent cesspool, and America looks like it’s in late stages of turning into a hellhole. The champion of the West against Russia, Ukraine, looks like something between Satanism and Fascism; basically, the most ridiculous chimera of all Modernist and Postmodernist failures patched together as a weapon against Christianity and Reason, a weapon that treats human life as utterly worthless in the name of human rights and humanism, completely in line with the trend that started with the Guillotine orgies of the French Revolution.

As a conclusion, no, Man is not the measure of all things. Also, human life is not the ultimate value. God is the measure of all things, and Man without God is an empty shell devoid of anything worthwhile to live for, and if human life is the ultimate value, then there’s nothing so great that it’s worth living and dying for, making human life ultimately pointless and worthless. This concludes the godless experiment of Satan – in total, absolute failure.

PC lineage

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I was watching some YouTube videos about old computers, thinking: which ones are predecessors of our current machines, and which ones are merely extinct technology, blind alleys that led nowhere?

It’s an interesting question. I used to assume that home computers from the 1980s are predecessors of the current machines, but then I saw someone work on an old minicomputer running UNIX, PDP-10 or something, and that thing felt instantly familiar, unlike ZX Spectrum, Apple II or Commodore 64, which feel nothing like what we have today. Is it possible that I had it wrong? When I look at the first Macintosh, it feels very much like the user interface we use today, but Macintosh was a technological demonstration that didn’t actually do anything useful yet, because hardware was too weak. But where did the Macintosh come from? Lisa, of course. And Lisa was the attempt to make Xerox Alto streamlined and commercially viable. All three were failures; the idea was good, but the technology wasn’t there yet. The first computers that feel exactly like what we are now using were the graphical workstations from Silicon Graphics and Sun, because they were basically minicomputers with a graphical console and a 3d rendering engine.

It’s almost as if home computers were a parallel branch of technology, related more to Atari arcade machines than the minicomputers and mainframes of the day, created as attempts to work with inferior but cheap technology, which evolved from Altair to Apple II to IBM PC, which evolved from 8088 to 80286 to 80386, when Microsoft copied the Macintosh interface and made it into a mass market OS, as technology became viable, then Windows evolved from 3.00 to 95 to 98… and then this entire technological blind alley went extinct, because the technology became advanced enough to erase the difference between the UNIX graphical workstations and personal computers, and so Microsoft started running a mainframe kernel on a PC, which was called NT, at version 4 it became a viable competition to Windows 95, and Windows 2000 ran NT kernel, and the 95/98/ME kernel was retired completely, ending the playground phase of PC technology and making everything a graphical workstation. Parallel to that, Steve Jobs, exiled from Apple, was tinkering with his NEXT graphical workstation project, which became quite good but didn’t sell, and when Apple begged him to come back and save them from themselves, he brought the NextStep OS and that became the OS X on the new generation of Macintosh computers. So, basically, the PC architecture was in its infancy phase and playing with cheap but inferior hardware until the prices of hardware came down so much that the stuff that used to be reserved for the high-cost graphical workstations became inexpensive enough that the graphical workstations stopped being a niche thing, went into main stream, and drove the personal computers as they used to be into extinction.

Just think about it – today’s computer has a 2D/3D graphical accelerator, integrated on the CPU or dedicated, it runs UNIX (Mac OS and Linux) or something very similar, derived from the mainframe NT kernel (Windows), it’s a multi-user, seamlessly multitasking system, but it all runs on hardware that’s been so integrated it fits in a phone.

So, the actual evolution of personal computers goes from an IBM mainframe to a DEC minicomputer to a UNIX graphical workstation to Windows NT 4 and Mac OS X, to iPhone and Android.

The home computer evolution goes from Altair 8800 to Apple I and II to IBM PC, then from MS DOS to Windows 3.0, 95, 98, ME… and goes extinct. The attempt to make a personal computer with graphical user interface goes from Xerox Alto to Apple Lisa to Macintosh, then to Macintosh 2, OS being upgraded to version 9… and going extinct, being replaced by a successor to NEXT repackaged as the new generation of Macintosh, with the OS that was built around UNIX. Then at some point the tech got so miniaturised that we now have phones running UNIX, which is a mainframe/minicomputer OS, directly descended from the graphical workstations.

Which is why you could take a SGI Indigo2 workstation today and recognise it as a normal computer, slow but functional, and you would take the first IBM PC or Apple II and it would feel like absolutely nothing you are accustomed to. That’s because your PC isn’t descended from IBM PC, it’s descended from a mainframe that mimicked the general look of a PC and learned to be backwards compatible with one.