Spiritual evolution is not a ladder. It’s also not a singular Path that leads to a singular Goal.

This is an important thing to know, because all kinds of spiritual and quasi-spiritual teachers and movements since Vivekananda have been convincing us otherwise. They have been convincing us that all religions and paths are like a web of rivers that all flow into the One Ocean which is God, and also, that they all originate from God, in one way or another, so it’s basically a dead loop that connects A to A by going through all kinds of places that have neither meaning nor true importance.

This is all false. It’s all a grave misunderstanding, in a sense that this is not at all what’s going on, or how things work. Also, playing the Relative/Absolute games of Vedanta doesn’t actually provide us with any useful answers, so I’m going to just ignore those trivial answers of the “everything is God” kind, because they are like some kind of a drug that makes you feel smart, but you’re really not.

You now probably expect me to give you an alternative simple answer that will make you feel like you know everything. I’m not going to do that. The actual answer is simple enough, but also complex enough that it’s not useful for ego tripping of that kind. Kalapas aggregate, and most aggregations don’t amount to much, really. You can call them souls, or you can call them potatoes for all it matters. However, with enough iterations some of those aggregations stumble upon something that actually works, and then we start getting something that can be called a soul, or you can call it a manifestation of Brahman in the Relative. However, the successful outcomes are so diverse, that it’s nowhere near being a singular pattern of evolution, that produces a singular good outcome. It’s more like a farmer’s market, where you have all kinds of fruits and vegetables, and they are all good, but a good tomato is vastly different from a good watermelon. And so, you have beings that manifest beauty, beings that manifest knowledge, and all kinds of other good things, and you can say that beauty is powerful, and music is powerful, and a nuclear explosion is powerful, but power is not measured on a singular dimension, and it’s not a scalar. Rather, it’s a n-dimensional tensor. If you try to reduce it to a scalar, you are completely missing the point. In fact, a good way of explaining this is human sexual dimorphism. Essentially, there is no such thing as “human”; there are men and women, and metrics of “good”, “successful” and “powerful” are completely different between them; male and female are completely parallel paths, and if you’re trying to merge them, you get less instead of more. This is why Hinduism represents peak spiritual states as a married couple of male and female deities, and it’s more than a metaphor; rather, it’s a way of explaining that there is no one correct answer to the question “what does God look like”. Also, the fact that there is a plurality of God-couples gives another dimension to this, because not only are Vishnu and Lakshmi equal but different answers to the question, but also the Shiva and Shakti couple give another, equally good answer, basically saying that human mind is so limited by the sexual dimorphism of the species, that God equation has male and female solutions, and not only that, but God-couple has multiple valid solutions, because God-outcomes of evolutions have different characters, flavours or however you want to phrase it.

This means that the conventional human way of conceiving the evolution-vector, originating probably in ancient Greece, is wrong. Simplified, this vector-concept states that if there is a relation of better-worse, on the “worse” endpoint you necessarily get the absolute evil that is so bad that it can’t possibly get worse by any modification, and anything you change on it can only make it less bad, and on the other side you get the absolute good that can’t possibly be modified in any way that would not make it worse. That’s not how it works in reality. In reality, there is a tree of options with multiple endpoints, some of which are various flavours of terrible, while some are various flavours of God, and each of those flavours has a male and female version.

The better-worse vector is a hard thing to get out of people’s heads, because it’s so ingrained in the Western theology that I don’t know where to even begin explaining it. However, let me illustrate the problem by citing something I’ve been dealing with recently: computers. Basically, you would expect that more powerful, newer computers are better than old, less powerful ones, but that’s not exactly how it works. A desktop and a laptop are different solutions to the “computer” equation, and the same generation has a laptop-solution, and a desktop-solution; those are comparable to “male” and “female” in our theology, where a good male outcome and a good female outcome are completely different, but they are both good, each with a multidimensional tensor of strengths and weaknesses, and if you try to combine the two, you get the worst of both: a heavy, big laptop that overheats like crazy, or a small, luggable desktop that’s also crap. However, if you allow good outcomes to be different, you get a MacBook Air as one solution, and a gaming/workstation desktop with a huge display, a mechanical keyboard, and tons of power and cooling, as the other solution. Both are the outcomes of the same technological generation and are equally modern, but “good” is not something that has a singular answer, which is why I have many computers. A “good” home server is a different thing than a “good” laptop, or a “good” desktop workstation, and then there are “good” Windows systems and “good” Mac systems, of both laptop and desktop flavours. Also, there’s a reason why I have an older ThinkPad – by almost every metric it’s worse than my M4 MacBook Air, but as something to carry to the beach and write an article there, under the pines, where pine resin occasionally drips down and makes a mess, or there is salt water spray from the waves that can get into the electronics, something that’s easy and cheap to repair, and puts a low price on total loss in case it gets outright destroyed, is “better” for the task. For instance, I wrote yesterday’s second article that way, and I wouldn’t have done it if I had to carry the new, expensive machine to a hazardous environment. The better, more expensive computer is suddenly “worse” if you need something rugged, cheap and potentially expendable, but good enough for performing all the necessary tasks. The one reason for all sorts of arguments is that people expect there to be a singular answer to “good”, but that’s not how things work. Complexity exists for a reason, and reductionism is usually a lossy process – in both material and spiritual spheres. That’s why I have a problem with Vedanta; it makes you feel smart, as if you have all the answers, but that’s the problem – historically, idiots always had all the answers. They “knew” that the lights on the night sky were a path of spilled milk, which is why it’s called the Milky Way. They “knew” there’s a rabbit on the Moon. They “knew” that Poseidon causes the earthquakes by banging his trident in fury. So, maybe it’s not about knowing answers to all questions, but about changing your way of thinking in ways that allow you to survive the understanding that reality is sometimes irreducible to your human limitations, and the best you can do is live with metaphors that each explain a small part, and give up on having all-encompassing simple answers.

As a continuation of the previous article:

One might think a “badge of demerit” isn’t a big deal; after all, if some religions threaten you with eternal damnation in hell, what’s a badge compared to that?

Oh, you might be surprised. In fact, you might prefer eternal death in hell.

You see, such a “badge” is not something that can be hidden. In fact, it’s the first thing everyone you ever meet will see about you. Also, it will immediately tell the whole story of your failure. It will also determine your spiritual “rank”, barring you from any duty of importance or distinction.

It’s the opposite with the “jewels”. They also demand immediate attention and are the first thing one sees about you, like a title on a business card, only much more detailed, telling the whole story of a great deed which earned it. Anyone who is introduced to you will see that first, see its message played out in an instant, and know that, metaphorically, they are speaking to a general in God’s army, or a great hero, or something to that effect. This will open the doors of advancement, and into the company of other great and distinguished individuals, who not only held their own in the world, but also went beyond the normal and expected, into the realm of great and amazing deeds. It’s like the title of sainthood, but very specific, where the jewel is tailored by your specific achievement and is yours alone.

Imagine being defined, forever, by such an order of (de)merit. Imagine having the title of “traitor of God”, like Judas, forever. Death in hell might be preferable. Also, imagine having the title of a Heroic Victorious Combatant in God’s battle against Satan, opening all doors for you in eternity, and granting you respect and a voice in matters of great import. Not all titles sound like military ranks and orders of merit, of course, but I’m using those to paint a picture. Some jewels can be earned by contemplating or meditating upon some subtle spiritual experience all your life and staying faithful to its memory, or sacrificing something for a worthy goal, and are very subtle and specific – but they open doors and grant respect regardless. The doors that are opened or closed by such “badges” are subtle and invisible, but still, they form a great divide in the true life, a divide between the valley of shame, and the grand peak of eternal glory, atop of which resides the golden throne of God.

There’s a question I expected to be asked, but for some reason never was.

If there’s a lower limit placed on soul quality/evolutionary level, and this level is blue vajra, and everybody below that level will be judged as not having reached sufficient spiritual level for continued existence on the next level, and the support system that maintains souls of inferior quality is to be discontinued, what does that mean for souls that have been made of higher substances – blue vajra and higher – prior to this physical incarnation, but failed to attain initiation in this incarnation?

You see, that exists, and I call those being “partial incarnations”, or, in case of beings that incarnate from a very high level, “partial avatars”. This is my name for a being who failed to close the loop by attaining initiation into levels of reality that were available to them prior to this incarnation. An example of this would be someone whose spiritual body is made of mostly blue vajra, but in this incarnation fails to operate on anything higher than the heart-centered emotional level. So, what happens if such a soul fails to, basically, remember and choose its own nature, and instead gets stuck in some worldly mess, or, in the worst case, actively makes choices that oppose those of their soul?

I don’t know why nobody asked me that, because it’s a pretty obvious question, if you have any experience with those things. The answer is not straightforward. In some cases, if one really fucks up, the results can be really bad for them; and by fucking up I mean giving Satan control of their spiritual resources. They will lose control of those, most likely forever, and those resources will be corrupted by Satan, and in addition to losing them, they will suffer karmic consequences for their corruption and, partially, for all the evil that is to be wrought using them.

If all one does is get lost here, do stupid things, and never attain initiation, I think they get to wear this incarnation as a badge of demerit of a sort, forever. I guess if all kinds of spiritual jewels exist as an equivalent of badges of honour, merit or some kind of success, equivalent to a scientific degree or a military rank, there also exist the negative equivalents – stains of shame and demerit, that show that you were weak, deluded, mistaken and did foolish or even evil things in this world, not only failing to achieve success and glory, but outright failing, by achieving weakness, stupidity and delusion. Imagine a “medal” of cowardice, stupidity and demerit, and having to wear it forever. Yeah, that’s the most likely fate of those who incarnated here to show the rest of us how it’s done when a big shot shows up, and then they get completely lost and not only fail to achieve anything of value, but achieve demerits that embarrass their soul for all eternity and can never be hidden.

Sure, it’s a bit too late to think about those things now, but those concerned are of the kind who would never have listened to me anyway.

So, loss of spiritual assets and earning a badge of dishonour are among the possible consequences of failure to attain initiation to your actual spiritual level. However, they are not the worst things that can happen. In absolutely worst scenarios, one can become completely lost and disintegrate, losing most if not all of their spiritual mass. I know people who are good candidates for this fate, due to their terrible choices that turned them into outright demons, but the less is said about them, the better. Let’s just say that the angels of death will hold their nose while throwing them to hell. As Jesus said, for some people it would have been better were they not born at all.

I’m thinking about the systems of government that have been tried in this world, and trying to conceptualise the system of government that exists in the real world, the one created by God, that’s usually called heaven or something similar in a religious context.

So, is heaven a democracy, a monarchy, a republic, or what?

I was thinking about that, and concluded that the best way to put it is this. Imagine the entire world as a corporation. Everybody in it has a job, a purpose. Also, everybody is a shareholder, with a single kalapa being one share, and, basically, the more kalapas in your spiritual body, the more influence you have over the company – in fact, over the created world – because it means that you are more “of God” than other beings, because each kalapa is the most fundamental manifestation of God’s spirit in the relative. It’s not a linear thing, because kalapas aggregate into larger structures, which collapse into structures of greater density but lower volume when they reach complete purity, and then those larger structures grow in size and collapse into structures of even greater density, and so on. So, basically, the company is run by a board of directors, who run different “departments” and represent different aspects of reality and spiritual evolution, and they both rule and represent because they are, by the virtue of their spiritual magnitude, the greatest manifestations of the transcendental God in the relative, and as such they contain the best available perspective on what is important, what is real, good, and leads to greater knowledge and manifestation of God. So, those big shareholders speak for a huge number of “shares”, and the concept of “one person, one vote” doesn’t really exist. The Christians would say that the Heaven is ruled by God, and great saints and angels, due to their better and deeper communion with God, have greater responsibility and power, because the power and authority of God works through them. I could actually be more precise in my description, but I will intentionally leave it vague so that some surprises remain for those who get to witness it in person. 🙂