One might ask why God even had that idea about giving immature souls the ability to access Divine power of Creation? How does that help anything?

You know that Satanist argument, how God is a tyrant who doesn’t give souls the right to choose for themselves what they want to be and how to live their lives? It’s not new, and Satan himself and probably many like him had made it before this world was made. Basically, they would say that God created the world as he liked it, not asking them what they would like or what kind of a world they would want to live in. God also makes all the rules and his existence and presence is obvious as an evolutionary attractor, not allowing for any alternatives. They wanted “freedom to choose”, and when you strip that of bullshit and propaganda, you get small souls envious of the fact that they always have to be aware of the fact that they are small, because they keep meeting the big ones. The argument that the good world is too good and thus doesn’t allow them the freedom of choice is of course nonsense – it’s essentially “You keep feeding us good food all the time, but what if we want to eat garbage and excrement? We want to be free to do it.” There was another argument that actually had a valid point: lots of souls in heaven were actually total assholes who couldn’t be effectively revealed as such because they lacked opportunity. Sure, Satan hoped that all souls bigger than him would be discredited and destroyed and he could say “I told you so, there’s nobody who’s actually better than me”, but the possibility that a significant number of souls, who looked good in heaven, would turn out to be whores and politicians if given opportunity, that actually stood unanswered, and is probably the reason why God relented and gave them everything they wanted, but with all the necessary safeguards. Basically, if a non-God soul wanted to create something, they first had to convince someone who was probably the best of their own kind, and if he thought it was safe enough, you could go right ahead.

So, the Satanists have it completely wrong. It’s not God who is a tyrant. If anything, God went above what I would consider good sense in allowing the souls to do whatever the fuck they want. If there’s anyone who actually wanted to be a tyrant and rule with fear and intimidation, but lacked the power and authority to do so, it was Sanat Kumar, their beloved Satan. So, the whole “rebellion against authority” thing is barking at the wrong tree.

People are never satisfied. First they were complaining that God doesn’t allow them the freedom to eat shit, and now that they have to eat shit they complain that God is a cunt who made an evil world where they can’t even see him and they have to eat shit. They were complaining that God created the world where assholes can’t be revealed and discredited, and now that they themselves are revealed and discredited for being assholes, they complain that God is cruel for allowing so many souls to be destroyed and for creating a world where poor children and puppies die.

How about go fuck yourselves for a change? Eh?

I could go on about various things that get souls destroyed in this world; for instance, atheism/materialism is spiritually fatal, and this world is the only place that creates conditions that make it a possibility. The souls, of course, carry a deep conviction of God’s existence within themselves from the real world, so they for the most part instinctively embrace some form of religion, because it “makes sense”, but some who hated God and always wished he didn’t exist or died, see this place as a haven full of possibility. Of course, for a soul atheism is suicidal; it negates the conditions that make its existence possible, because a soul lives only because it maintains a transcendental connection to the Absolute, through all its kalapas. Negating God is up there with all other terrible sins a soul can commit if it wants to destroy itself, and this world facilitates that by design.

So, one can feel fully justified in asking why creation of this world was allowed in the first place, and who is to blame? There must be some sort of responsibility for this, because it’s like digging up a deep hole in the ground, covering it with a carpet, putting advertisement and sign posts pointing to that direction promising great stuff, and when someone falls in, you say it’s their fault; you didn’t drop them in, you just dug up a hole, posted false advertisement to trick the gullible, and covered the hole so that its nature wouldn’t be obvious. When we put it like that, this is not a world, it’s a crime scene.

However, things are not that simple. Responsibility for this place is layered. The first, fundamental responsibility lies with God who created the necessary conditions that made this possible, by creating the Jewel, and allowing someone lesser than himself to allow or deny access. We can further reduce this part to the desire to allow lesser beings to have access to God’s creative power, because that was the motivation – God didn’t need the Jewel to create worlds, and if he himself guarded access, that would be the same as if saying that only he could use it. The point of lesser beings using creative power is for them to use it for purposes God wouldn’t think of, or allow. This is the reason why someone less than God had to be given the position of a Sentinel.

The second level of responsibility lies with the Sentinel, who did two things wrong: he allowed Sanat Kumar to create this hellhole, and he dismissed the warning.

The third level of responsibility lies with Sanat Kumar, who designed this world to be what it is, with full knowledge of what’s most likely to happen.

The fourth level of responsibility lies with the souls who discovered that this world allows for all kinds of things they always wanted to do, but had no option to do them – enslave, imprison, rape, maim and murder other beings, for instance. A large part of why this place is a hell is because of who lives here and what they like doing. Sure, a big part of suffering is caused by the world itself, but incarnate souls are certainly doing their part in making Satan’s dream come true.

So, without God taking pity on lesser beings and allowing them to use tools that are way above what they should normally have access to at their point of spiritual evolution, none of this would have happened. Without Sentinel being an arrogant fool, Sanat Kumar could do nothing. Without Sanat Kumar, who used the Jewel in order to create a godless dungeon that encourages evil and discourages devotion to God, the Jewel would probably be used for some benign purpose – and likely was, but we don’t know about it because it wasn’t a problem. And of course, without evil souls who used this place for all kinds of terrible things, it never would have become the hellhole it is now.

But let me be the Devil’s advocate here for a moment. I have a small axe, or you can call it a hatchet, that I use for splitting firewood when I’m making barbecue. It’s left here in the open on top of the box with wood. It’s not guarded or supervised, and yet nobody used it to split someone’s head open. There are also kitchen knives in the drawer, they are all unsupervised, and nobody used any of those to slaughter someone. There are cans of butane gas for the portable stove that I use for making breakfast when the electricity runs out, which sometimes happens here. Nobody had the brilliant idea of rigging the cans together and putting them on the induction stove to make a bomb. You can see what I’m getting at. If you have the mind of a criminal, you could use all kinds of harmless or otherwise useful objects for evil purposes. The fact that something exists that could potentially be abused doesn’t mean that the one creating the thing in question is responsible for a crime. People who make hatchets intended for people to use them for splitting wood or rough carpentry. People making kitchen knives intended for people to use them for cutting meat and vegetables. People making cars intended for people to use them for going places, not running into groups of people with intent of mass murder. It is implied that the responsibility for use of something lies on the user and not the manufacturer, except if the item itself is designed in ways that encourage evil use. For instance, if you design a truck with enforced structure and spikes and blades on the front, with intent of making it easier to injure people, that would count as designing something especially intended for evil uses. Manufacturing explosive devices that look like candy so that children would be encouraged to pick them up and be killed or maimed is also one such use, where the manufacturer is complicit in a crime. I don’t think the Jewel qualifies. He’s more like a computer that you can use to do whatever. If “whatever” means playing Super Mario, reading books, having some privacy or creating a VR of a magical forest with all kinds of beautiful things, nobody has a problem. There are, however, all kinds of uses that are a problem, but they are not a result of some malevolent use designed into the computer, but of malevolent aspects of human nature that use computers to create or watch child porn, trucks for vehicular homicide, and hatchets for splitting people’s heads open.

You can say that something as powerful as the Jewel shouldn’t have been left unsupervised. It wasn’t. However, the supervisor failed in his task. You can say the supervisor should have been someone better. Maybe, if there was a valid reason to suspect that Sentinel wouldn’t do a good job prior to the fact, he wouldn’t be appointed. It’s easy to be smart in hindsight. I was actually there and I warned the Sentinel not to grant access to Sanat Kumar, and he waved me off and even lectured me on developing more faith in God. If anyone is qualified to bitch about it, it’s me, and I’m not even sure what could have been done to prevent this mess other than not creating the Jewel in the first place, because it’s obvious now that giving non-Divine beings Divine power ultimately results in disaster. There’s a reason why great power comes with great wisdom and great holiness. Separating power from wisdom and holiness means to create conditions for great abuse of said power.

However, let’s make one thing clear. Sanat Kumar was a criminal and Sentinel was an idiot, but if it weren’t for the likes of you, Sanat Kumar would have created this world and listened to the crickets, because nobody would have gone in. All the arrogant souls wanted to test themselves, all the stupid ones rushed in and got wrecked, and all who wanted a place where they could live without God and be his enemies rushed in gladly. All the criminals who wanted to feel what it’s like to kill someone went in, thinking they finally found the true Heaven. The fact that all those souls got fucked here is not a tragedy. I guess one could say that God allowed creation of this place exactly because of his foresight, knowing that this will serve to purge Heaven of all kinds of bastards and scum, who will show their true colours here, be destroyed and the spiritual energy once contained in them will be freed and joined with better souls, all ultimately to the greater glory of God.

So, eventually it all depends on how you look at it. If you’re a bastard soul who went here because you thought you could do evil with impunity, or get an ego trip out of defeating Satan, you got fucked and now you’re whining and looking for someone to blame. Sorry, but fuck you. If you’re someone like myself who has to clean it up and it hurts like bloody hell, you’re complaining but you’re also growing bigger and more powerful so also, no tears should be shed over my fate. Sanat Kumar was already found guilty and killed for his crimes, so you can blame him all you want but he’s already been dealt with. You can blame the Sentinel for being an idiot, but he too is already dead so you can piss on his grave for all it will do. You can blame me for not intimidating the Sentinel and only using arguments, but he was put there to do his job and intimidating him into submission would defy the purpose of his post. You can blame God for creating the Jewel in the first place, and that’s a fair point, but please remind me why that even became a problem? Oh right, because there are asshole souls who wanted to use hatchets for killing people instead of splitting firewood, and please remind me why it’s actually bad that they all got destroyed?

As I said, it’s a complicated mess, and I’m not sure blaming anyone is the right sentiment. There are lessons to be learned, and there’s a mess to clean up, and there are hopefully ways to turn this into something good.

Volumes have been written about the spiritual dangers of arrogance, but even so, I don’t think people can imagine the level of hubris some advanced souls displayed when interacting with Satan and this world, or the level of harm such souls happened to sustain as a result of their foolishness.

However, this foolishness has a name; it’s a very specific kind. It’s name is belief that God can overcome everything, that God is absolutely supreme, and that their reliance on God, that created and evolved their souls to the point of being essentially archangels/demigods, will serve them as well here in this place, as it did in the real world, where they were born and where they evolved.

Yes, belief in God’s supremacy and in your position because you believe in God completely, is fatal arrogance. It’s the arrogance Sentinel displayed when he allowed Sanat Kumar to have access to the world-rendering engine, the Jewel, in order to perform his experiments, because God is perfect and supreme, so what evil could ever come of it? He believed no evil could happen because God would have prevented it, and even if it did happen God would easily have overcome it, so evil can’t be a really serious threat. And yet, it was God who put him in charge of the Jewel and making sure it’s accessed only for good reasons. He was warned not to grant access to Sanat Kumar, and yet he dismissed the warning, telling me I had ways to grow in my faith in God because my belief that there’s serious danger marks me as immature. Now he’s dead, and we’re all fucked. So yeah, faith in God is a form of fatal arrogance. If you have faith in God and you’re not God, you’re an idiot because you don’t know what you’re talking about, it’s just your internal pep talk and self deception. You’re free to believe in God when you’re God doing God things. Before that, work on exchanging belief for actual experience and practical knowledge, because then you’ll actually know what you’re talking about. But that’s just my personal frustrations speaking. I hate it when I’m right and people don’t listen because “they know better”.

The problem with arrogance is that it’s the heads side of a coin that has another side, called humility. It’s a spiritual disease, an ego defect, a sign of a problem with your relationship with reality, and like the manic-depressive disorder that became known as the bipolar disorder, this one should be known as a singular issue that has two apparently opposite aspects. Remember when I said that I have no self-confidence whatsoever? Well, that’s the cure for the arrogant-humble disorder, because an arrogant-humble patient has baseless belief in the state of things that they can’t currently witness or work with as fact. They either believe they are great, or they believe they are worthless. They either aggrandise themselves, or diminish themselves. Both are symptoms of the same ego defect, because the solution is to just see what is real, and then say it’s real. To think is to know shit, basically. This is why I don’t trust in any kind of science that doesn’t produce technology, because technology is the kind of feedback from reality that shows that your science works. Cathode-ray tube and solar panels are the proof of the photoelectric effect. A working airplane is proof that your aerodynamics and propulsion theories are sound. If it doesn’t produce technology, it means it doesn’t have feedback from reality, which means it’s all bullshit as far as I’m concerned. It’s the same with God. God is reality, not theory. You’re either there or you’re not. Having an opinion is of no use. If you know what God thinks, either you’re a God-person who thinks that, or you’re suffering from an ego disorder.

“Knowing what God thinks” sounds like hubris and arrogance, but all the humble people suffer from the same condition. They all “know what God thinks”. They “know” they are unworthy or worthless, they “know” they are sinful, they “know” they deserve damnation and they can be saved only through God’s intervention. There’s a whole Bible of things they “know” about what God thinks about this or that. Their humility and their arrogance are the same coin. They are supremely arrogant to think they figured out God, and supremely humble before God as they figured him out. They just never got around to ask God, but there’s no need, because they believe and they have faith.

This profile of souls can apparently function just fine in Heaven, but their ego structure is a very bad match for the design parameters of this world, which exposes their vulnerabilities and attacks them instantly and viciously, and they sometimes have enough time to figure it out and solve their problem, and sometimes they get destroyed instantly, the way I already described – basically, challenge Satan to do his worst, here, in his playground, and that’s where your story gets a very bad turn. Thinking that God will overcome all may have served you well in Heaven, where God ruled supreme anyway, but here, you need to understand that Satan has actual permissions from God, and that you need to tread very lightly here and not make claims that won’t be backed.

It’s obvious how arrogance gets you in trouble, but humility somehow manages to get under the radar and present itself as cure for arrogance, rather than a different appearance of the same problem. However, this world is abundant with people and institutions who will tell you to obey them, and teach you that even thinking about refusing them means arrogance, and “we all know” God hates arrogance. So, every thief, every rapist, every murderer, every corporation and every government will want your humble compliance with their plans, and their argument will always be “Who are you to say no? What right do you have to say no?” It’s quite obvious how humility gets you instantly enslaved, because an assumption that you’re nobody, that you’re sinful if you think you’re better than anyone else, gets you in a position where you can’t actually deal with abusive people or institutions. So, people usually resort to arrogance as a defence, but having a fictitious defensive answer, to a question you don’t actually have an answer to, does not actually solve the problem. But, what does?

Let me tell you what I did when Satan attacked me once when I was half asleep and therefore the least able to resist. I told him “I surrendered and dedicated my entire being to God alone, and since you’re an expert in all things non-God, please, if you find anything on me that is not of God and devoted to God, by all means, either destroy it or take it with you because I have no need for it anyway”. Basically, I opened myself towards him and surrendered to his attempt to find any hypocrisy, falsehood or essentially anything not of God, and if he found it he could keep it. His presence went away instantly.

So, my interaction with Satan was not along the lines of “I’m going to fight you and win because reasons”, or “I’m unworthy because reasons, but I trust that God will protect me”. It was “I am ready to surrender to your test of my choice for God, and if you find falsehood in me, I will answer for it, if God allows it”. It’s neither humility nor arrogance. It’s just facts and reality. No ego, no opinions, no beliefs, no mental or emotional structures unbacked by reality. It’s merely “I built an engine, the nominal specs are here, feel free to test it”.

I’m not saying I’m completely impervious to the arrogance-humility disorder, because part of it is built into the biology of the species, but at least I’m aware of the problem and I’m trying to stay clear of the pitfalls as they arise. So, for the most part, I try to be neither humble nor arrogant. I merely state facts as I see them, and to the extent I’m allowed, and if you doubt them go ahead and verify if you think it’s within your sphere of competence. My answer to the “who do you think you are?” is always “I try not to think, especially when prodded by people I don’t care for”. I am who I am, it is what it is, it does what it does. What I think matters very little. Basically, the answer to an arrogant person trying to appear as a champion of humility and to drive me into a humble mode where they will be able to easily command me to my detriment and their benefit, is “I’m afraid you are talking to the wrong person, you confused me for someone who gives a shit”. “Who do you think you are, talking to me like that?” – “Someone who doesn’t give a shit about you”.

I know that the part about souls that grew up partially damaged due to systematic torture in this world by Sanat Kumar must have caught everybody’s attention, and it’s natural to ask oneself what would prevent him to do that to you. I actually asked myself the same question, because I was pretty much on top of his shit list.

The answer is, you apparently need to be stupid and arrogant enough to actually ask for it, and I wasn’t. Some, however, were. Imagine a being that’s basically a crystal of blue or deep violet vajra, thinking it’s indestructible, immortal and pure God-consciousness, coming here to deal with the Satan problem that seems to have been some kind of an issue to the weak souls that tried to solve it before, and smilingly challenges him to do his worst.

And Satan, of course, shrugs and says “you have a deal”.

You can imagine what happens next, and I don’t even want to go there, but that’s how you end up with a fatally broken crystalline soul that calls Satan “Master”, thinks there’s a rapist in every shadow and underground garage, and parents are people who psychologically and physically torture you. Such a person no longer listens because she thinks she knows everything already, and just wants to stay on Sanat Kumar’s good side by serving him in every possible capacity and avoiding anything that would possibly displease him.

Imagine being so arrogant and stupid as to enter this place on its owner’s terms and literally invite him to do his worst and thus give him permission to do so, that he would normally not have, and would have to play by the rules in order to avoid being punished for a karmic transgression himself. You might ask how someone so arrogant and stupid ended growing so big and powerful spiritually, and that’s where we come to the next thing I was talking about, how souls who evolved in the real world, the one God created, end up being very much perfectly formed and beautiful, but they lack imagination regarding evil, what it looks like, what it can do, and so on. Also, since they never actually had any experience with evil where they grew, they were never harmed or exposed to something really nasty, and so they don’t really get it. They don’t understand what it would be to grow up in poverty with parents who use you as a punching bag or whatever else. They don’t understand what it would be like to be sold into slavery, be carried away into a Roman whore house and repeatedly fucked by customers until you die in your early twenties. Those sophisticated souls who grew outside the realm of evil think bad things happen only to those who are evil themselves and thus deserve it, and they, pure meditation on an aspect of God, have no evil within themselves, and all evil will thus just wash harmlessly across their perimeter, taking no hold.

And then they wake up here, after having challenged Satan to do his worst because they believe in the power of God, and their tragedy begins, and goes on, and on, and on, and death doesn’t end it, and they end up as broken slaves of Satan, afraid of every shadow, afraid of every action that could cross him, and he needs but to raise an eyebrow at them for them to piss themselves.

That’s the story of fuck around and find out. To invite evil to do its worst against you isn’t faith in God. It’s arrogance and stupidity. Faith in God is to never test fate, but instead assume you are in real, deadly trouble, and hold on to God in every thought and action, never presuming to sin against even the Devil himself, but instead merely talk about how great and wonderful God is. This place is unfortunately a graveyard of the arrogant and the stupid, and mistakes were often fatal. Crushing the arrogant powerful souls is Satan’s specialty, and in order to challenge him in his seat of power you need to really be an idiot, because by doing that you become his property in a very true sense of the word, and you just removed any fear of punishment that would otherwise force him to be circumspect and roundabout in his ways. How much can he harm you? The answer is “yes”. But if you are respectful, mindful of your situation, and focused on God as an Ariadne’s thread in this world, following His silent presence in all things, Satan can tempt, he can test, he can offer you something similar to what you think is God in order to test your discernment, he can expose you to some degree of hardship to test your resolve, but he generally needs to be really careful about it.

You know, he actually did threaten me personally – he asked me if I realised what he can do to me here. You know what I answered? “I know, you can do immensely terrible things, but they would be your choice, not mine; and being your choice, they would also be your responsibility under the law of God”.