Weakest link

I (hopefully) just replaced the weakest link of my photographic system: the camera I take with me when I don’t feel there will be any pictures to be taken and I don’t feel like carrying a 1.5 kg rig for a walk for no obvious reason. It used to be this:

It’s Olympus E-PL1 micro four thirds camera with a collapsible kit lens, m.zuiko 14-42mm f/3.5-5.6. I stopped using it because it doesn’t have a viewfinder, the screen is terrible, the autofocus is terrible, and the camera is ergonomically so bad, that I almost gave up photography altogether, because of how much of a pain it was to use. However, when the iPhones started recording RAW, I replaced the E-PL1 with that; after all, I’m carrying the phone in my pocket every time I go out, and if it already has a camera that records 12MP RAW, why carry another camera that records 12MP RAW? The problem is, the 12MP number for the iPhone is a lie. The pictures are almost never good enough to make a sharp 4K wallpaper, which is somewhat more than 8MP. Also, they show signs of extreme overprocessing, regardless of the supposed RAW file. As a result, I took some very good pictures with a phone, that won’t magnify or print well:

The idea about replacing the Olympus with something modern with a viewfinder was in the back of my mind for years, and I considered Olympus OM-D E-M10:

This would work just fine, and could be purchased inexpensively used, but it doesn’t play well with my Sony system: different batteries and charger, different menu system to learn and be annoyed by, different (worse) autofocus to be annoyed by, and different lenses that can’t be mounted to anything else. Then my son bought Sony a6700 APS-C camera that fixes almost all of those issues, and I liked it a lot: the sensor is basically the APS-C crop of my A7RV, the menu system is either similar enough or the same, and it’s small and light enough. The problem: all the lenses would work in crop mode. This would mean buying APS-C lenses if I wanted to remain compact, or using my existing large lenses on a small body, which doesn’t solve anything. I liked the form factor a lot, and my thought was “if only that had a 35mm sensor inside”.

Well, in fact there is a thing with that form factor, but with A7RV 35mm sensor inside, and it’s called A7CR:

It solves the problem, however it’s very expensive and I’ve been considering it reluctantly, because lenses were always a greater priority than cameras, because they actually create the differences in images. It’s faulty logic, however, because if I keep taking pictures with an iPhone because I left my camera at home, I’m going to get iPhone picture quality, not A7RV picture quality. And I did keep taking pictures with the iPhone occasionally:

It’s nice, until you try to magnify it, and after you clone out the lens flare reflections from everywhere.

The new camera uses the same batteries and charger as A7RV, so no redundant clutter. It has the same menu system, same sensor, and same autofocus system as A7RV. For all intents and purposes, it’s A7RV hardware with worse viewfinder and screen, and less ergonimical body shape. However, it’s small enough to be pocketable in a big winter jacket; if I use a compact enough lens, of course.

And here’s where I had the second actual issue, other than the price. The only compact lens I have is the 50mm f/1.8. I then considered this, and decided that the 50mm will be just fine for what it does, but I do need a good compact wideangle to accompany it, so I got a Sigma 24mm f/3.5 DG DN, which is very small and very sharp corner to corner, but at the cost of aperture, which I don’t care for in wide angle, since I mostly use it at f/8 to get everything sharp. I just want it to be optically brilliant, cheap and pocketable, and it is all those things. I also decided to get the Sony FE 28-60mm f/4-5.6 collapsible kit zoom, which is extremely sharp in the centre, but less so in the corners, but which will serve the purpose of an “iPhone replacement”; basically, if I could use the m.zuiko 14-42mm collapsible kit, which is optically horrible by all accounts, and this lens is certainly better, if somewhat shorter in range, it’s going to do just fine for things that would otherwise be photographed with my phone.

So, this makes a compact 61MP 35mm system with three compact lenses: 24mm f/3.5, 28-60mm f/4-5.6 and 50mm f/1.8, and I didn’t want to buy any more lenses before I’m sure I actually have a problem they are meant to solve, because longer lenses tend to be big, and if I’m bringing big lenses, I’m bringing a proper camera system as well.

The second use for the A7CR is to serve as a second body, which means it’s a legitimate part of my main system, not just a sidekick. If I need a macro lens on one body and a wideangle on another, this now works. Also, all files have the same colours and noise profile since they are made with the same sensor, and both bodies have the same autofocus system. Also, all the small lenses work on the main camera; they, too, are a legitimate part of the system.

So, this stupid bullshit is what I’m preoccupying my mind with while waiting for the world to end. 🙂

 

Weather

We went to Plitvice in order to get some change of scenery and catch different photographic motives – snow and ice, and if we can’t have that, then at least some fog over the lakes. Instead, we got three brilliantly sunny days:

On the other hand, when we returned home, the sunniest place in the country, we got rain, clouds and fog:

But yeah, cobwebs with dew beads, yay. 🙂

The Lakes in spring

I failed to get icy and snowy shots of the Plitvice lakes; mostly because it was that kind of a year. When there was ice and snow, the roads were dangerous, and it all melted almost immediately, so I couldn’t plan anything. Also, we had much more serious problems to deal with. Also, I had a book to write.

No snow. Plenty of snowdrops, though:

The trees are still bare, and the wide compositions were harder to arrange:

Plenty of ducks, though:

Here’s the whole album.

Success

I managed to finally find the hummingbird moth in proper context and for long enough to take pictures:

I usually just find them dead after they got stuck in the stairwell, so this is an improvement. 🙂

What’s the reason why I finally managed to get it? Nothing, really. I just kept doing the same thing that failed before. I went to a blossoming tree with a camera in hope the bugs show up. The lesson, I guess, is that failure isn’t necessarily a sign you are doing something wrong, and reading too much into either failure or success isn’t beneficial. It can be merely a matter of time, or statistics, or factors completely out of your control, such as bugs really liking that tree you chose.

What am I actually suggesting here? There was lots of quasi-spiritual nonsense floating around in the 1990s and I guess most of it kind of stuck with people, and they just assume it implicitly. The problem is, that stuff all mostly contradicts itself:

  • if you keep failing, maybe the Universe is trying to tell you something
  • follow your bliss
  • you need to persist if things are hard, because that treasure chest might be just one inch below the point you stopped digging
  • if you stop struggling and let go, you might find out that the outcome you feared might be nothing at all

You see what I’m getting at? It’s all nice sounding motivational bullshit. Maybe the Universe is telling you something, or maybe the bugs just aren’t there that day and you’re doing everything right. If you persist, you might waste your life doing the wrong things, or you might eventually succeed, because it’s merely a matter of statistics, and the thing that led to success isn’t any different than the thing that produced failure before. If you give up, you might regret it, or you might find out that what you feared isn’t really a big deal. It’s basically all some kind of copium people like smoking because it feels nice and comforting. The problem is, in the 1990s when this nonsense was trending, everybody believed it, because they were all reading from the same script and copying each other’s homework. This is also the reason why all those supposedly enlightened people sound so similar. No, it’s not because “The Truth is One”, it’s because they are copying each other’s homework.

Also, if you keep succeeding at things, maybe you should try doing something hard for a change. Basically, if all you’re doing is adding single digit numbers and you keep succeeding, you may think you’re a genius, but there’s another word for an adult stuck in first grade.

State of things

I thought I was going to get some rest and recover from serious brain fatigue after writing the book, but somehow, the opposite happened, as I tried to get the book corrected and out in the final form as quickly as possible, and that meant proofreading it once, then having Marin proofread it using his AI tools as I vetted the suggestions, which meant basically somewhat proofreading it for the second time, and then after he was done, I went through the book for the third time, and all of it of course used the same parts of the brain as writing the book, since you can’t proofread it if you’re not experiencing it fully and so on.

But we got results: “The Light Beyond” is now properly corrected and published on Kindle as an e-book. The samples of the physical hardcover edition are on the way to Marin, because he’s closer, and then we’ll decide on whether to go with glossy or matte, how good the cover looks IRL and whether the inner margins are big enough. The classic typesetting stuff. The purpose of the hardcover is to avoid the situation where people will try to print it themselves and end up with all sorts of improvised and unsatisfactory solutions, the way it always happens when I don’t publish a physical book, which is how it always turned out ever since the early 2000s. That, however, is pure convenience, which is why it’s the second thing we went for. The first thing was the e-book, because in the era of digital media where everybody reads books from phones, tablets and other computer-forms, that became the book. In fact, I haven’t read physical books in who knows how long, simply because it’s harder on my eyesight to read from a non-illuminated surface where the text can’t be magnified to a comfortable size.

I’m making the PDF download available for free on this website in parallel. It’s mostly a failsafe against censorship; I don’t care whether it’s free or Amazon makes all the money, because those are the two only realistic options. The only way I could actually get some money from it, which would actually be nice, is to set up cryptocurrency donation on my website, which is something I might actually do at some point. Every other way, someone else is going to make all the money and people are going to be pissed at me for getting rich off of people wanting to read books. I mean, I wouldn’t mind getting rich that way, since it would be the most satisfying thing – I’d profit from doing something good.

As for how I’m doing – not well, I’m afraid. The guys “up there” stopped downloading stuff into my brain since I finished the book, but I’m transforming an endless river of karmic refuse from global sources, and it’s going on basically 24/7. Someone’s in a hurry, I guess, and I never got any rest whatsoever. Right now, I would assess my condition as pretty much critical, in the sense that this can’t go on, because something is going to break.

Occasionally, when I go out and take pictures, I do get some rest because that uses different parts of my brain, and that helps. This continued barrage of writing and proofreading exhausted my brain to a point where it automatically blanks out when I try to use those parts. This means things would get actually damaged if I pushed it any further. That, combined with the fact that I’m not allowed to rest because spending karma seems to be absolutely urgent and can’t be postponed, means I’ll try to take pictures of nice things while not thinking about anything, but of course, that won’t happen, because FML. 🙂