There’s something I hear occasionally in different contexts, and it never fails to piss me off.

“I’m proud to be X”, where X is an element of a set of races, genders, sexual orientations, nations and similar, presumably immutable properties.

If you didn’t do anything to earn it, what exactly are you proud of?

By definition you didn’t deserve it. You just found yourself having those attributes and properties and you had to deal with it. Where does pride come into play, exactly?

Being proud of an immutable property makes as little sense as being ashamed of it. It makes sense to be proud or ashamed of something you did. For instance, you learned how to code in c++. Good for you, that’s something you can be proud of. But to be proud of being born a certain way? You didn’t do anything. What’s there to be proud of? You can be happy or displeased with what you got, because that’s a function of relative comparison of one’s properties against the properties of others. If you have a high IQ, or if you look good, that’s something to be happy about, but proud? I don’t get how you can be proud of looking good, as if you personally designed yourself and it turned out well. No, you just lucked out.

There is a possible counter-argument, I know. If you happen to identify as a member of a certain group, and that group as a collective did something good or bad relative to other groups, you can have emotional reactions. This can be as trivial as your national football team having done well in the world championship, or something as nefarious as your nation having committed genocide and lost the world war. Still, there’s a problem: if you didn’t actually play football in the world championship, what exactly are you proud of? Someone else did well, and you identify with the same collective entity? Someone else killed people and you live in the same country 60 years later and that somehow connects the two? Those collective identities exist, they can be felt, they are real, but that doesn’t make them any less stupid.

I can’t feel any kind of pride about being white, or being a man. Honestly, I can’t. It’s like being born a chicken and being proud of your feathers. The general situation of being a chicken is alarming and tragic, if anything, and if that happened to you, and you were proud because you’re a female chicken that can lay eggs and all the roosters want to fuck you, I can’t see that as a sign of intelligence for the life of me.

Maybe I just suck at identifying with a species of ape, or with particular territorial divisions within the species, but for the most part, I see all those identifications and divisions as most people probably see identifications and divisions between species of chickens.

The problem with Israel

As you might already know, I like the Jews. Their ratio of capital achievements in science, arts, literature etc., to their population size, is staggeringly high, making them the single most advanced ethnic group in the world. I also like them because all the cowardly scum targets them because they are too scared to address the real problems, and the Jews are somehow always a handy target-substitute for cowards.

The Jews are, for the most part, a European culture. True, they originate from the Middle East, but they’ve been in Europe for 2000 years, which is probably longer than they’ve existed in the Middle East as a nation, and this made them Europeans, for all intents and purposes. They have more similarities with the Germans than with other Middle-Eastern ethnicities, which becomes quite obvious when you take a look at the state of Israel. It looks like a manifestation of Europe within a typical Middle-Eastern shithole, and therein lies my problem.

The state of Israel looks like a very bad idea. You’re putting an advanced culture inside a very primitive and hostile region, and the only true protection Israel can count on comes from America, which has serious problems of their own. When all your neighbours are trying to kill you, and your only source of protection are the lobbying groups influencing the fundamentalist Christians in America to protect their “sacred lands”, and America is increasingly influenced by counter-lobbying by Saudi Arabia and other wealthy Islamic countries, as well as the neomarxist postmodernist scourge that is overwhelmingly hostile to Israel, the entire picture looks very much like you’re putting all your eggs in one basket in a place where it’s raining axes and hammers, and your only protection is a glass roof. It’s not the greatest idea anyone ever had.

Also, the very effective ways Israel is using to handle the Arabs are undermined by the concepts of human rights and democracy, which are making it impossible to defend yourself as a nation because the very concepts of race, ethnicity and nation-state are anathema to the paradigm of universal human equality in rights. Israel did a very good thing by shoving the Muslim immigrants into Europe, because now Europe will either have to see and accept Israeli point of view and methods, or there will be no Europe to pontificate and annoy Israel with their bullshit, always taking the Palestinian side and making it extremely difficult for Israel to function.

I truly hope the citizens of Europe are very quick to adopt the Israeli point of view, as well as their methods, because the alternative is absolutely unacceptable. Unfortunately, the way things are going, the good outcome is increasingly unlikely. It looks more probable that both Israel and Europe will be overwhelmed by inbred savages from various shitholes of the world, and our civilization will be extinguished. Of course, once the Muslims become a majority due to the idiotic ideology of human equality, they will promptly change the laws to abolish it and proclaim an Islamic caliphate. This ideology of equality will thus become the sociological equivalent of the machine that turns off its own power switch.

Guilt and blame

I’ve been watching and reading various attempts at analysis of the concept of responsibility. One side advocates for “extreme ownership”: basically, everything is your fault and your responsibility to fix, because you are the only part of the world you can actually influence and change, and radiate change outwards from the center of self. The other side does the complete opposite and blames the external conditions for everything, stating that an individual is merely a product of the environment and can hardly be blamed for his actions, being little more than a deterministic automaton.

As you can imagine, my understanding of those things is more layered and nuanced.

First of all, I have to state that I don’t necessarily disagree with either side, but find them both lacking. Yes, you are the only thing over which you have full authority, and self is the necessary starting point of any change, be it positive or otherwise. And yes, the environment has an overwhelming influence that cannot be simply dismissed. As a saying goes, it’s easy to be a saint in heaven.

Truly, most people will be mere products of their environment. If they are born in a Muslim country they will be Muslim, if they are raised by atheists they will be atheists, they will adopt beliefs that make sense to them due to their experience and will act in ways that are usually a facsimile of their environment. One medieval serf is very similar to another; one medieval lord is very similar to another. People who are really different and stand out from their peers are very rare, probably in the order of one in a million. People who are able to really effect change and revolutionize the world are in the order of one in a billion.

However, that’s not important. What you are judged by are not the big and revolutionary things, such as inventing electricity or a social media platform. It’s the little things: how you addressed someone when you had the choice of kindness, cruelty or indifference. It’s not whether you were traumatized or not, but how you chose to react to your suffering: did it make you more compassionate to the suffering of others, or did you just propagate it in a form of black body radiation: you suffer, you release it by making others suffer. If you choose the latter, you can hardly call it choice, or manifestation of free will and personal sovereignty. If you do what everybody else does, does it make your actions justified, or are you just condemned as a non-entity, a NPC that executes a script? Sometimes a NPC script is to go to office, do work, go home, eat dinner. Sometimes it’s spy on enemies of the state, inform the authorities, watch them tortured and executed, eat dinner. And sometimes it’s round up people of wrong nationality or ideology, shoot them in the head, bury them in a ditch, go home, eat dinner. If there is no point at which you say “fuck this shit”, the point where you wake up from the routine of conformity and choose to be crushed rather than to comply, how the hell are you an incarnation of your soul in the first place? How can a NPC automaton incarnate a spiritual entity of a higher order? What the fuck are you, anyway?

I once had a dream where I was a thief running from the police, and I just followed the logic of the situation: run away, and when cornered, take the gun and… wait a fucking minute, am I following the logic of the situation and automatically defending myself and choosing to shoot someone just because I found myself in this position? The dream became lucid at the point where I refused the automatism of sin, and then I understood that it’s more than a dream, it was a karmic lesson. The things you choose when you don’t realize it’s a test are the most indicative of your character. The fact that you’re a peasant means you’re going to have a hard life. But choosing whether to take it out on your wife and children because you had a rough day, that’s on you.

This world is a shithole, but it’s a shithole for two reasons. First is the inherent design. The second is people.

The inherent design of the world makes you vulnerable to cold, hunger, injury, sickness, old age, and other forms of humiliation. But it’s the beings that incarnate here that can make it either much better, or much worse. If you’re a woman working alone in a field, thirst, exhaustion, heat and cold are bad enough, but whether that man passing by chooses to bring you some water and chat with you politely, and then blesses you and bids you farewell, or chooses to rape and murder you, can make all the difference. Prisons aren’t bad because of the walls, but because of the scum that lives there. Take a prison building, put saints inside and you’ll have a monastery.

So, basically, there’s plenty of blame and guilt to go around. Satan is not just a person; it’s also a state of consciousness and a type of choice. Sure, Satan designed this shithole, but I don’t think it’s possible to be here against your will. Everybody came here by choice, and the reasons for that choice vary. Some thought they could improve it. Some thought to test themselves against great hardship, to prove they have what it takes to overcome. Some, however, saw it as an opportunity to spite God and torture and destroy others in vicious hatred.

Some of the best things in this world are created by humans: arts, literature, science, spiritual literature, music, acts of love and kindness. Also, some of the worst things in this world are created by humans: torture, humiliation, subjugation of others, brutality, rape, murder, genocide, indifference and cruelty, filth and cynicism. As bad as this world is, you can choose to make it worse, or oppose it by being better. That one is up to you, and if you choose to be an asshole, or just do NPC things, you can’t use the world as a justification, because the world didn’t force you to be a cunt. It just caused you pain and humiliation, and reacting to that by being a cunt, and not by praising God because He is different and better than this world, that’s on you.

Electric cars

In the recent years we’ve been bombarded by propaganda trying to shove electric cars down our throat, regardless of the fact that nobody really wants them, so I’ll write some things about that.

First of all, I have to say that I actually like electric cars as a concept. The electric motor is much more reliable and easy to maintain than the internal combustion engine. It also has excellent performance curve. My problem is with other things: first, the Li-ion battery is simply unfit for purpose. It decays after a few years, which is a problem since it’s the most expensive part of the car. It uses up Lithium, which is a very rare element that has to be mined and transported across huge distances, it’s a much more limited finite resource than petroleum, the batteries pose an inherent fire hazard which increases with age, use and mechanical damage, in order to power a car a battery needs to have huge capacity, and in order to charge such a huge battery you need either lots of time, or you need to shove an incredible amount of amps into the battery in a very short period of time, in your garage during the night, and this makes me uneasy, because if something goes wrong you have an incredibly deadly mixture of high current, dangerous chemistry and fire. Some of the battery issues can be resolved in the future, but we are not there yet. Right now the towing companies outright refuse to deal with wrecked electric cars because they are such a hazard.

Also, the electric cars are incredibly uneconomical. They cost more and do less. Apparently, most people agree with me since adoption of electric cars was not widespread, outside the circle of rich hipsters at least. You see, there’s a much more ecological and economical option: get a diesel with a modern particle filter and you get something that goes fast, sips fuel, is so low emission it actually beats most sources of electricity and certainly beats the environmental impact of Li-ion batteries, and is comparatively a bargain. Which is why the eco-nutcases are now working to badmouth and eventually ban diesel. Don’t get me wrong, I’m actually in favour of outlawing the old diesel shitboxes that leave black clouds of suffocation behind them, but we are talking about cars that don’t have particle filters. Euro 5 and Euro 6 diesels are not only not a problem, they are actually the best solution available. Everybody should drive those and the ecological impact of cars would drop to the point of background noise. Also, natural gas makes great sense as fuel, since it’s abundant and cheap, and you can easily convert gasoline engines to run on it and reduce their environmental impact, not on the combustion side, but on the oil refinery side of the equation.

But when we get to the energy supply side of things, it’s not like electricity is actually an abundant resource. In fact, I don’t see additional nuclear power plants being built to offset the expected increase in power consumption caused by the electric cars. Everybody talks about those stupid windmills that are the most useless and dirty power source of all time, and solar panels which are basically toxic waste, don’t work in most places for the majority of time, and work only at the time of day when people don’t charge their electric cars; the peak expected consumption would be over night. And oh yeah, neither the windmills nor the solar panels are recyclable. It’s just terrible landfill fodder, which makes “ecological” electricity sources terrible for the environment.

Which is why I expect the following to take place.

Now it’s “diesel is nasty, has to be banned, electric cars are pure and clean and wonderful”. Let’s say everybody switches to electric cars. Then it will be “electric cars consume more power in a day than a normal household consumes in a year, how dare you drive those pigs!”, “electric cars use components sourced from poor countries/using child labour/consuming finite resources, you should all feel guilty and kill yourselves for driving them”, and so on, ad nauseam. The next step would obviously be to restrict private vehicle ownership and push us to public transportation, which would of course be as crowded as those Japanese bullet trains where people are packed as sardines in a can. Which brings us to the next step, where the eco-freaks will simply kill us all because that solves all problems.