Minimalistic choices

Internet is full of videos and articles on the theme of “if you had to take one camera and one lens and use it for the next ten years, what would it be”. Or it’s “if you had to have only one computer, watch, pocket knife, car, pen…, what would it be”.

It always implies some kind of a “less is more” situation – basically, when you’re forced to use limited tools, you compensate with creativity and the results tend to be better than if you subscribe to “more is better” paradigm. Sure, sometimes. However, for the most part that’s all nonsense.

When you actually have a limiting situation, it’s not a choice between three different macbooks, a desktop computer and a gaming Windows laptop, and deciding to keep just one. It’s a situation where you have the cheapest possible computer that has minimal functionality for your daily tasks, and when you have to do something harder, it all starts to crumble under your fingers. Ask me how I know.

I had minimalist setups because I was poor, not because I subscribed to some stupid post-modernist minimalist paradigm where you own nothing and are happy. I owned nothing because it was an actual situation, and not some bullshit for YouTubers. Extreme poverty introduces its own kind of minimalism, and trust me, it doesn’t make you happy. It doesn’t reduce mental clutter – on the contrary.

Having a Macbook Pro that connects to Apple Studio Display with a single cable, with clean wireless mouse and keyboard setups, isn’t a realistic minimalist situation. Not having a desk and instead putting the cheap bulky computer you got used on the flimsy kitchen desk you found in the apartment you’re renting cheaply, that’s realistic minimalism. Working with whatever camera and lens you could get for the least possible amount of money because you couldn’t afford anything better, that’s realistic minimalism. It’s not a choice between ten excellent lenses and artificially limiting yourself to one. It’s using the one you found for 25 EUR on ebay because you had 25 EUR plus shipping, that’s realistic minimalism.

Minimalism isn’t a choice of one watch; minimalism is when you only have one watch, and it’s cheap because cheap is all you could afford. And by cheap I mean 50 EUR. Any by 50 EUR I mean you had to save for several months to be able to afford a 50 EUR watch, and you think it’s unjustifiable luxury. Ask me how I know.

When you’re poor, minimalism means you can’t replace your jeans, which have holes on them, because you had to replace your shoes first, because they too have holes on them. True minimalism isn’t a clean desk setup because you are decluttering. It’s an empty flimsy desk with nothing on it because that’s what you have.

When I see how people justify their minimalist setups, I can’t believe the nonsense I’m hearing. Like, they are using single-task devices such as typewriters or dedicated computers with no networking and only minimal software, so that they aren’t interrupted by all sorts of notifications and social media while they write. Excuse me, but that’s a matter that requires mental training, and not different equipment choices. When I open a word processor and write something, I can have literally dozens of things open in the background and I don’t notice any of them. I actually don’t hear what my wife is saying to me in person, and I have to ask her to repeat it later, because when I’m concentrating on writing, nothing else exists. It goes to such extremes that I can freeze behind the computer and get sick later because it was cold and I didn’t register it, because what I was doing took literally 100% concentration, to the point that I don’t register pain, hunger, hot, cold, noise, earthquake or aerial bombardment when I’m working. I don’t care about minimalism because when I’m working, I don’t perceive anything on my desk, or on my computer besides the program I’m using for the work I’m doing. I don’t need to have a clean desk with the smallest possible number of items on it, because otherwise my mind would be cluttered. On the contrary – my mind works like a switch, because that’s how I trained myself. When I’m doing something, nothing else exists; not because it’s not there, but because selective concentration is not a matter of having less things. It’s about focusing on just one thing, despite being surrounded by the entire world of things.

There’s a word in Croatian, “izdrkavanje”, which would literally translate as a wank job, but which means performative actions, things you do so that the audience would perceive how awesome you are. That’s how I perceive the performative minimalism. Its purpose is convincing other people that you have an organized mind because you have a clean desk from Ikea, with just a laptop, monitor, a wireless keyboard and a wireless mouse on it, with a possible addition of fake grass in a pot from Ikea. People who have such setups usually have nothing better to do than waste time on such performative minimalism, where an actually focused person would have all sorts of stuff lying around, while they are focused on just that one thing they are doing, and they don’t have time and energy to waste on performative actions intended for impressing anyone.

They usually say that minimalism reduces the overhead of choice – for instance, you don’t have to think about which lens you’re going to use because you only have one. Oh, the agony of choice; you need to pick one for that day. How horrible. If choice is hard, I just take what’s already on the camera, because if it mattered, the choice would be simple. What pencil or pen to choose? The one that’s closest to the paper, usually. If it actually matters, then I go to the pencil cup and pick a more adequate one.

I’m not advocating for chaos and lack of organization and tidiness. I’m saying that a minimalist setup is performative nonsense that takes more time and energy to maintain than a reasonably cluttered setup, and shows that your energy goes into showing other people how minimalist, tidy and clean you are, rather than getting shit done as efficiently as possible.

De-inteling

Apple decided to remove Rosetta 2 support in the next version of Mac OS. I don’t understand how that’s a good idea, since native support for Intel legacy applications, however inferior to the native ones, is why acceptance of Apple Silicon was so widespread and devoid of issues.

I understand why Apple would want to force software developers to issue new versions if they haven’t done so by now, because stuff that’s this old is usually a nest of bugs and issues. Also, support for games on a Mac works mostly due to a combination of virtual Windows and Rosetta 2 support for Intel games. It’s a hack, and it’s a poor substitute for native support, but this hack is now going to stop working. Unless native support becomes widespread, this is going to be a step backwards.

The OS started issuing notifications for stuff that’s about to stop working, and in my case it’s the following:

  • X-Rite calibration software
  • CyberPower Power Panel UPS software
  • Emu48 emulator for HP48 calculator

Everything else seems to have been successfully ported to Apple Silicon by now, which is good. As for the remaining stuff, I replaced my old colorimeter with the modern version, since it was 10 years old and didn’t work properly on new monitors for a while now; either the dyes on the device have faded, or the monitors started using different technology of backlighting it can’t figure out properly. Since it’s a legacy device that forced me to use legacy software, I replaced it. The new Calibrite Display Plus HL just arrived, I tested it with the new Calibrite software and everything works. X-Rite problem solved.

The UPS software and the Emu48 calculator will stop working. The UPS software is not an issue with laptops, but until Apple Silicon version is released, I will postpone upgrading the Mac Studio. Electricity is a problem here and I don’t want disorderly shutdowns by the UPS to break my SSD drives. I expect the software to be updated eventually, because the updates are released with some regularity. As for the calculator, I’m afraid it’s abandonware and unless someone builds a new version, it’s toast.

I also decided to replace my 43″ LG 4k monitor with a LG 32″ 6K device. The 43″ monitor is more than 8 years old, and I was never completely happy with it. First of all, I expected the big surface area to be more useful than it turned out to be. For the most part, I use it the same way I used the previous 27″ monitor – browser and chat tiled, with the chat taking approximately a quarter of the horizontal space on the right side. Lightroom, of course, takes the whole screen when I run it. It’s not that the solution is bad, but I want to try a high resolution, condensed 6K option which scales better on a Mac, rendering crisper fonts and so on. My eyes’ ability to focus on near objects started degrading seriously about the time I bought this huge monitor, and although it’s unlikely to be connected, I’m not sure the thing helped, either. Also, I find the retina-type displays much more pleasant, so I’m trying this out now. Or, at least, when the thing arrives.

None of it is of great importance, of course, but it’s something that keeps me focused while I process stuff that’s better not to discuss at great length.

Work work…

I ended up modifying my smtp server so that gmail would no longer bounce messages; it was easier than I thought, some simple things on the linux side and mostly DNS work. SPF, DKIM and DMARC. Sounds obscure, but very easy to do if you have a good tutorial and know how to follow the instructions. Fortunately, I kept my Linux skills sharp enough for this kind of stuff.

So, I can now again use my own mail server instead of Google’s, until someone in America again decides to adopt, modify and extinguish some existing and perfectly good open protocol. To defend the world against all kinds of evils, of course, because they’re the good guys. That’s sarcasm, BTW.

I used to be annoyed about the part of the NDE experiences where people come before the Judge and he shows them the retrospective of their life. At that time, I was going through my memories with a metaphoric magnifying glass, finding everything messed up in order to fix it, and it seemed to me that my life is basically all about fixing traumatic shit – traumatic either because it was something I did wrong, or because I was in a desperate situation. In any case, it looked like there’s almost nothing good there, and yet it’s something that’s been put on my plate and now I have to deal with it. If, after all that, someone’s first idea is to make me look into all that again, after it’s all over, I thought I’d be so annoyed I’d chase that person around Heaven with a stick.

And yet, I recently had a situation where exactly that happened; someone showed me where to look, again, with a different perspective, and my whole understanding of my childhood had changed. Not because I missed something before; I was very thorough. I did, however, inspect only myself; my role, my condition, my actions, and apparently that was not enough, because other people’s roles and actions in all of that fundamentally change the whole picture.

It’s not that my approach was wrong. It was incomplete, but not wrong. It’s like handling a medical emergency without handling the war that caused it. Necessary, and good, but doesn’t actually deal with the wider picture.

I did try to understand what’s the point. It is now pretty obvious what happened – Satan seems to have deceived me and modified my life in order to harm me in a very specific way. Why is a different question.

It certainly had consequences, and if I assume that those consequences are what he aimed for, apparently he harmed me in ways that would distort my own perception of myself and make it impossible, or at least incredibly hard, to reclaim myself here, in this body. The goal seems to be to make it impossible for me to coalesce my physical experience and person with my true, original being, because he blew so much dust in my face, I was supposed to spend the rest of this life navel gazing somewhere – trying to repent for and correct my supposed sins, which turned out to be forced errors or even someone else’s faults entirely. Basically, someone else showered me with shit and then tried to convince me it’s obviously my problem – after all, I do stink. Wouldn’t be right to run away from facts, right? Fortunately, God knows better what the facts actually are. Convincing me of them, however, seems to be an ongoing effort, but I seem to be making progress now. I would expect it’s related to the karmic processing, because it’s making me stronger. Me, as a physical being with layers of spiritual energetics of a very high order, as opposed to me as a being that actually incarnates through this.

How does that even work? I mean, I get the general idea. You attain initiation here in the physical, and this creates an energetic layer that makes it possible for you to live a deeper form of spiritual reality, and in my case incarnate more of my true being. It’s a partial incarnation until you get those energy bodies high enough and solid enough that there’s basically no difference between that and the incarnating entity. But that’s not actually something that even happens, historically. Not in this order of magnitude. I feel there’s something of unique importance going on, and I can’t figure it out yet. It has the “on Earth, as in Heaven” quality to it. For the first time, ever.

Not there yet; not quite. But I’m working on it. Apparently, I need to transform all this karmic mass in order to get there. The quantities are enormous, and I wonder what it even is, because it’s not like there are many things this big anywhere.

Reasons

I can imagine that people reading the last articles are trying to figure out the reasons why I wrote them. They are not very complicated. Biljana opened her gaming laptop to play Witcher 3 and the Windows basically kept it under lockdown with all the stupid updates, making it impossible to actually run what she wanted, until she told it to lay off with the updates for a week; then it ran fine. It got me thinking – Microsoft behaves as if the computer belongs to them first and user last, and the actually important stuff is all about installing updates and running things the OS thinks should be ran, and you get the leftovers, if you’re lucky and it doesn’t just do the reboot-update thing where the system is completely useless for hours. Also, it doesn’t actually bother to ask, because it knows better. I was thinking about it and concluded it’s not an accident, it’s a long-standing company policy. It’s the way they understand the computers, the users and the world. What they want and think matters; what you want and think is irrelevant, because they know better.

About the watches; I already mentioned I have issues with allergies. My nose is completely blocked and this impairs my breathing and elevates my stress level in addition to all the other things that are making my life miserable, such as filtering the astral equivalent of global sewage until it’s Evian. Well, it’s not just my breathing; my wrists are slightly swollen too, and my watch has a metal bracelet that’s adjusted to my normal wrist size, and the extra links for it are somewhere in Zagreb in a garage, and one would have to dig it out, mail it to me and then I’d expand the bracelet so that it doesn’t dig into my flesh, and that would solve the problem, but until then I can’t wear it. As you can see, it’s a whole to-do list. The obvious solution was to just wear another watch, with the leather strap, but my second watch is a battery powered quartz, and the battery just happened to die a month ago. Yes, I have a third watch, a twenty year old Casio, and it’s also quartz and the battery also died. That’s what got me thinking about watches, especially considering the fact that my main watch, the mechanical one, needs servicing since I’ve been wearing it non-stop for 8 years or so, and I’ll do that when I go to Zagreb in November to put the winter tyres on the car. So, considering I would have to be without a watch until then, I decided I had to do something and just bought a quartz movement Seiko with a leather strap, and the watch happened to be so nice, Biljana commented that she can’t actually tell how expensive it was – it doesn’t look worse than something like a JLC Master series in stainless steel, for instance.

This got me thinking about what are we actually paying for in watches, especially since I know that JLC Geophysic, released in the geophysics year along with the Sputnik 1, was intentionally designed to tick at true seconds, making it look like a quartz watch, only there weren’t quartz watches in the 1950s so people thought it was fancy. So, the thing that now makes people think a watch is “cheap”, the ticking at true seconds, is something JLC invented an expensive complication for in the 1950s. And yes, the Seiko I bought looks almost the same; only more accurate, and all for 230 EUR. The honest answer is that we are paying mostly for illusions and bullshit, and only somewhat for better materials and tolerances. We’re definitely not paying more for accuracy, or resistance to shocks or magnetic fields. So, that got me thinking and I wrote the article about it.

Also, I was thinking how a watch is just physical matter until I bind spiritual energetics to it, which is the point where it actually becomes something special and precious, and overpaying for matter that pretends to be something special just so that I would have to turn it into something actually special is pointless. And while we’re at that, since I was too exhausted and brain-dead from the spending to do anything complicated and elaborate, I merely punched a hole from the watch to the “God realm”, in order for it to create a feeling of presence when I wear it. I expected nothing from it, but a very old and dear friend paid me a wordless visit through that thing. It helped, my Lord. Thank you. I hope to see you soon for coffee.

The Windows update machine

I heard an anecdote from the 1980s, when Microsoft programmers who developed software for the Macintosh platform joked that on a Mac, keyboard interrupt has higher priority than the hard drive interrupt, which they considered supremely silly, because of course hard drive is a more important part of the computer. What they didn’t realise is that when keyboard isn’t responsive, the user thinks the machine is dead and panics, so it’s extremely important to keep the user interface responsive even when the machine is stressed. If hard drive takes somewhat longer to do its thing, however, nobody neither notices nor cares.

It’s a matter of corporate culture, obviously, and it persisted to this day. When Mac OS has an update pending, it notifies me and goes away. When I’m ready to let it update the machine, I let it know and then it does its thing. Other than that, it gets out of my way and lets me do the important things. On a Windows machine, however, the first thing it does is start downloading and installing updates, which makes the machine hot, loud and slow. A Windows machine thinks updates are the most important thing in the world, because it’s a self-serving mess. To a Windows machine, the user is an unimportant addition, someone who was allowed to use it, but otherwise doesn’t matter. The machine serves itself, the OS serves itself, and its updates, security and similar buzzwords nobody really cares about are the most important things. The user comes last, after the OS is happy because it finished doing the “important” things with 100% of resources. Only then can the user get the leftovers.

This, among other things, is the reason why I’m writing this on a Mac.